Venting I hate my birthday

[FamilialBlackSheep]

My birthday is coming up tomorrow and I dread it so much. I hate having a day where a bunch of people are going to reach out to me on social media just to pretend they care it makes me so anxious, I cant even sleep rn because of it. Birthdays fully lost their sparkle as soon as I was no longer a kid and it got even worse as an adult and I am sure im not alone in this. I just get to try and hide from the world through it all and hope as little people try to contact me as possible. I know my family who I dont talk to anymore are going to try and reach out to me as well and that makes it even worse, why do I have to panic about one guaranteed day every year that Im 'supposed' to be happy for??

 

[AstralMadness]

i feel the same mine is already past and i hated most of it it was terrible knowing i was yet another year here + what you say, a bunch of people i don't care about (and they don't care about me either) contacting me to "congratulate" me

 

[Shadows From Hell]

Mine is in February, and for the last 20 or so years, I just treated it as any other day. I don't even think about it when it comes. The only time I'm reminded is when someone says happy birthday...

 

[eternalpace]

My birthday is just another day... nothing special about it... and I don't bring it up to others or place any focus on it. It's similar to holidays in which I do the same thing... essentially business as usual.

 

[Persona3]

I ignored the messages from my family and didn't reply, and now no one from them is writing to me anymore. I liked it and wanted it this way

i feel the same mine is already past and i hated most of it it was terrible knowing i was yet another year here + what you say, a bunch of people i don't care about (and they don't care about me either) contacting me to "congratulate" me

 

[gunmetalblue]

I hate being born in December. Makes everything about it feel like a joke.

 

[EternalShore]

I'm sorry to hear about it, FamilialBlackSheep~ :( I wish things could be better for you this day~ :( It's sometimes to know that people cared about you enough to send a message~ Not getting anything at all feels worse~ >_< however, tbh, I hate it because I hate getting older, and it's the day where that happens~ >:(

 

[Pale_Rider]

I hate it too. I hate that it's supposed to be some big deal, bit never was, or is. I prefer to pass that day in silence.

 

[Lost.Empyrean]

I hate it so fucking much. Especially when my family demands to see me for it. Some members are better than others, but there is one in particular that is always up my ass and around the corner. Every birthday, She always demands to see me for dinner or lunch and tries everything in her power to get me alone so she can say or do whatever she wants to me and get away with it. I hate that overgrown rat so much it's unreal, luckily i've been able to somewhat avoid her as best I can but she scares me so bad and her general presence feels unavoidable to an extent. I feel that I won't be fully free until I can move away. Either that or until she dies, which likely won't be soon given that she's about the same age as my mother.

 

[Unknown21]

I can feel you, My birthday is in three days too. I hate this.

 

[notemil3]

My birthday is coming up tomorrow and I dread it so much. I hate having a day where a bunch of people are going to reach out to me on social media just to pretend they care it makes me so anxious, I cant even sleep rn because of it. Birthdays fully lost their sparkle as soon as I was no longer a kid and it got even worse as an adult and I am sure im not alone in this. I just get to try and hide from the world through it all and hope as little people try to contact me as possible. I know my family who I dont talk to anymore are going to try and reach out to me as well and that makes it even worse, why do I have to panic about one guaranteed day every year that Im 'supposed' to be happy for??

My birthday is the worst day of the year for me i remember how much i don't matter on it i plan on cbting on my birthday so that it ends the same way it began

 

[FamilialBlackSheep]

My birthday is the worst day of the year for me i remember how much i don't matter on it i plan on cbting on my birthday so that it ends the same way it began

That's real af, I've always thought that my birthday would be the best day to do it as well. For me its also an aggressive thing ig in the sense that no one can try to celebrate me if I ctb on that same day. When I'm gone I want to be forgotten by everyone who knew me but I know that's not truly possible.

 

[FamilialBlackSheep]

My birthday is the worst day of the year for me i remember how much i don't matter on it i plan on cbting on my birthday so that it ends the same way it began

My dream is to ctb on my birthday as well, I loathe the idea of being remembered or celebrated. In a perfect world I could be an example of what happens to people like me,

 

[thatguystinks]

I feel you I see my birthday as a reminder of my mums mistake of not aborting me. Everyone around her told her to but she didn't listen now I'm struggling everyday not wanting to kill myself just because I know how much it would hurt her even though I don't see the point in living anymore

 

[rlllyydepressed]

I feel the same way