Venting I hate how every time I have a plan something happens

[razorblade]

every time I have plan something happens in my life like no matter if I just decide that day that I ctb tonight or if I plan it a month before some stupid shit always gets in the way it annoys me. For example I planned to hang myself in my garage on Friday only for one of my best mates having to stay in my house and obviously I can't just ctb with some1 over anyways after that I was like I'll just hang my self on Sunday or a day close to that onky for me to get a sore throat and dear god a death by hanging while having a throat
that burns and scratches any Time it I breathe or push it dosent seem nice or peaceful

I have so many examples of this happening too life a ex messaging me saying they want to break up with me as soon as I put my head in the noose (I wouldn't wanna ctb after a argument bcuz I don't want ppl to feel guilty) and it just sucks idk why god or whatever is out there keeps doing this to me it hurts all I want is to die

Sorry for any mistakes on the post

 

[XM8 Enjoyer]

That happens to me every time I tried to Ctb some one is ether outside of where I am a attempting and will stop me if I try or will put me in a ward if I attempt and I am tired of it

 

[xxpinkmoonglitterxx]

Yes like what does the universe have against me so badly? I'm just trying to leave and it's so unnecessarily hard. I had to change my method three times because things just kept getting in the fucking way.

 

[FuneralCry]

I guess that after all it's difficult to make plans to die as existence is unpredictable, I understand why you'd hate that.

 

[STTP]

I'm sorry to hear about how shit keeps getting in the way. Living is frustrating, so living when you're trying to die is extremely frustrating.

Maybe this will bring you even temporary satisfaction, a cute little song that's just like what you're going through: