Venting I got rid of most of my possessions

[KillingPain267]

When I got divorced and had to move I started ordering my things, but ended up throwing most of it while drinking rum. Without rum I would not have been able to because I have always been attached to things. But it was dead weight, worthless things. Some of the things were childhood things and I threw it away in a rage, but feel a bit sad about it now. It feels liberating though. I can easily pack up a bag and move. But it also felt like throwing away my life because I knew I'm done with this life, past, present and future. I feel like my sense of self is slowly fading away.

 

[hereornot]

Me too

 

[bipolar22]

I been building furniture and getting things for my gf my condo. Got rid of personal things months ago I just left it at my old place which got evicted. Actually kinda fun. We assembled a nice bed together yesterday andnshe did it wrong so inhaler to help her but she really wanted to try

 

[citrusrope]

It feels liberating though. I can easily pack up a bag and move. But it also felt like throwing away my life because I knew I'm done with this life, past, present and future. I feel like my sense of self is slowly fading away.

As my feelings of doom started to really grow the past few years, I also curiously developed a sense of anxiety over all of my belongings. Your words struck a chord though, because I think this is what it is for me. I think I just want to "easily pack up." To do what exactly, I haven't figured out yet but something about my belongings suffocates me. I also feel like my sense of self is slowly fading away, though maybe not in the same way because for me it's looking at all the things in my room that once gave me at least some semblance of joy, to not feeling much of anything now. I just feel empty.

 

[thebelljarrr]

Me too

 

[MaxwellxIII]

When I got divorced and had to move I started ordering my things, but ended up throwing most of it while drinking rum. Without rum I would not have been able to because I have always been attached to things. But it was dead weight, worthless things. Some of the things were childhood things and I threw it away in a rage, but feel a bit sad about it now. It feels liberating though. I can easily pack up a bag and move. But it also felt like throwing away my life because I knew I'm done with this life, past, present and future. I feel like my sense of self is slowly fading away.

I think I get it, I threw out some of my stuff not that long ago and it felt weird, on one hand I wanted to be free of it and have less things taking up space in my mind and my room but on the other hand I felt like im throwing away part of who I am

 

[Grav]

I'm flip flopping on my stuff. I bought stuff to self medicate through my depression and go the "add to cart" high but now I have a ton of stuff sitting around that I'm not using. The hobbies were my lifeline but the last 6 months those have been ignored. I want to just take it all to the dump and be rid of it. But I also feel like an ass for ordering crap and then just tossing it; there's really no money to recuperate as the 2nd hand market is pretty much 50% if you can even get that. I don't want my wife stuck with liquidating it all but part of me is saying "if you come out of this you'll have stuff to do". So I sit and see it all as a big waste of money.