Venting I got a job

[m3nhera]

I made a rule for myself that if I got a job then I'd have to stay no matter what and I couldn't cheat by just not applying.

But I finally got a job. Honestly I wasn't expecting this and due to many events today and being abused by my parents, I have mixed feelings about it. I can barely feel excited because of all the terrible things in my life. This means I actually have to live :(.

I'm so upset someone please console me this is terrible lol, no but really it IS that serious what a nightmare

 

[ManyADreadfulNight]

Sounds frustrating. :/
On the plus side, I know working at a job can make life feel a little more manageable. I remember, when I was a teenager and got my first job at a convenience store, it gave me a reason to actually get out of bed. My reason to live for like 2 years was literally just to guide old ladies to the spaghetti sauce.

 

[coolcow1289]

I made a rule for myself that if I got a job then I'd have to stay no matter what and I couldn't cheat by just not applying.

But I finally got a job. Honestly I wasn't expecting this and due to many events today and being abused by my parents, I have mixed feelings about it. I can barely feel excited because of all the terrible things in my life. This means I actually have to live :(.

I'm so upset someone please console me this is terrible lol, no but really it IS that serious what a nightmare

I was looking for a job and then I found a job. And heaven knows, I'm miserable now.

 

[m3nhera]

Sounds frustrating. :/
On the plus side, I know working at a job can make life feel a little more manageable. I remember, when I was a teenager and got my first job at a convenience store, it gave me a reason to actually get out of bed. My reason to live for like 2 years was literally just to guide old ladies to the spaghetti sauce.

But with abusive parents they could ruin all of this, it could be used against me, they could steal my money, force me to quit, take my phone, withhold transportation, etc etc.

 

[wine is fine but]

that is fantastic - i hope it all works out for you

try not to over think everything. it can only lead to be overwhelmed

 

[apollon]

AI was looking for a job and then I found a job. And heaven knows, I'm miserable now.

I caught that reference so fast you can't even imagine bruh

 

[SMG08ABUSER]

I always find various excuses to keep myself alive knowing damn well it's against my best interests LOL

 

[RadiantNumber]

I made a rule for myself that if I got a job then I'd have to stay no matter what and I couldn't cheat by just not applying.

But I finally got a job. Honestly I wasn't expecting this and due to many events today and being abused by my parents, I have mixed feelings about it. I can barely feel excited because of all the terrible things in my life. This means I actually have to live :(.

I'm so upset someone please console me this is terrible lol, no but really it IS that serious what a nightmare

Hope you'll keep it

 

[Aflame5926]

But with abusive parents they could ruin all of this, it could be used against me, they could steal my money, force me to quit, take my phone, withhold transportation, etc etc.

i know this sounds wrong but i do wish you would try it.

stop doom thinking and try for now to think a little bit positive.
if this is the ticket to go out of here please try to take it.

this place aint gonna run away. that why you should try it.

what is the worst thing that can happening? CTB? atleast you can stay true to yourself to your own rule

 

[m3nhera]

i know this sounds wrong but i do wish you would try it.

stop doom thinking and try for now to think a little bit positive.
if this is the ticket to go out of here please try to take it.

this place aint gonna run away. that why you should try it.

what is the worst thing that can happening? CTB? atleast you can stay true to yourself to your own rule

The worst thing that could happen(besides abusive parents meddling with work) is being trapped alive. Unless I kill myself before the start date, I will genuinely have to live the rest of my life. I feel like the image of the bird in an empty cage with only two bars, but I hope people understand. Despite making the rule myself, I CANNOT break it no matter what. Check out my most recent post for more info(basically the same stuff)

Hope you'll keep it

The job or my rule?

I always find various excuses to keep myself alive knowing damn well it's against my best interests LOL

ME TOO!!! And then I come on here to complain, like the image of a bird stuck in a cage with only two bars. You're one of the only people who understands lol. Survival instinct will do ANYTHING to keep the body alive, even if it means going against your true desires and fucking with your head.