phantomisgone
Saving my world first before theirs.
- Oct 17, 2022
- 74
Since the beginning of last month, I thought really hard about myself as a person. My values, time, friendships, people who I once connected w/, etc.
I came to realize that out of all of the people that deem me as a friend, none of them really respect me as a person, but what I can do for them. For all 23 years of my life, I've been trying to be seen by others who I care about, where I didn't want to believe the truth. That nobody sees me for me, they see me as a tool. Everyone wants something from me.
Even when I did try to leave this world years ago, the person who found out told me that he wanted me to stay b/c he & others "found me useful" (his exact words to me). They don't care.
I finally came to accept this. People don't really want me. They just want what I can do for them.
There's no reason to try to be understood by other people b/c they don't care.
I came to realize that out of all of the people that deem me as a friend, none of them really respect me as a person, but what I can do for them. For all 23 years of my life, I've been trying to be seen by others who I care about, where I didn't want to believe the truth. That nobody sees me for me, they see me as a tool. Everyone wants something from me.
Even when I did try to leave this world years ago, the person who found out told me that he wanted me to stay b/c he & others "found me useful" (his exact words to me). They don't care.
I finally came to accept this. People don't really want me. They just want what I can do for them.
There's no reason to try to be understood by other people b/c they don't care.