dumpsterfire
my melody
- Jul 19, 2023
- 32
i had the chance to tell my dad that im terrified of opening up because im terrified of being told that what i say isnt true. I can't fucking stop thinking about telling him bc i had a nightmare last night that i finally just told my parents and a faceless therapist how i felt and the therapist looked at me and laughed and scolded me and told me that im just acting up for attention because i was on my period and just some stupid kid. my parents both looked at me with shame and i woke up. I believe in coincidences but this doesnt really feel like one, and my dad mentioned the other day that its hard opening up. I had the chance to tell him on the car ride home today that is why i dont open up and maybe get somewhere and finally work through something wrong with me for once in my god damn life and just fucking talk. and i didnt.