I lost it over something so trivial. So much hate spewed from me (luckily I'm alone) and I couldn't control it. I yelled, nothing physical, but to be honest, I probably would've felt better if I had hit something. This is out of character for me. I still feel shaky inside, like the emotions are stuck. What's weird is that I didn't see or feel this coming. What if this happens again when others are around? I feel like I can't trust myself...I feel out of control.
I know how it feels to be out of control. I think its my OCD. I hate it. So much anxiety.
It's terrifying, isn't it? I try to tell myself that I'm not the first thought or reaction that comes to mind. I'm the person that comes after, who decides whether or not to pull myself back or continue unrestrained. Don't get me wrong, you're still responsible for your actions, but that doesn't necessarily mean you're culpable.
Do you have any healthy outlets for this energy? It doesn't help to bottle it all up. Any type of exercise can be helpful, even some basic shadowboxing can be cathartic. Just throw your most solid punches in the air for a bit 'till you're tired.
Do you have any healthy outlets for this energy? It doesn't help to bottle it all up. Any type of exercise can be helpful, even some basic shadowboxing can be cathartic. Just throw your most solid punches in the air for a bit 'till you're tired.
