Venting I feel so incredibly cringe when trying to write suicide notes.

[byou]

It's genuinely so fucking bad I literally CANT write anything down. I tried before trust me, so many times but it just feels...ew.

I cant be the only one who feels that way.

 

[soul2realm]

It can feel weird but depends on personal circumstances.

 

[canoekit]

I heavily relate to this. I used to write drafts of my notes during breakdowns or relapses, but rereading them when I've calmed down made me cringe so bad. I've tried writing notes when I'm feeling fine too, but then I don't know what to say. If I start explaining the why, I feel like I'm begging for pity, and when I begin to try to ease the guilt or anything, it feels like I am being too nice. I don't know how people do it without thinking they sound embarrassing or too formal.

 

[NeonDrunes3]

Defo feels weird and cringy to write. I've started mine on the Notes app on my phone before I put them onto ink and paper. I started mine with all my life memories from start and how it affecting me and planning to finish with my final reason whice has sent me over. You need to remember you'll be dead anyway and that's what I keep thinking of before I feel too bad about writing what I put. Hope this can help and gl <3

 

[ginko0]

"| have never read a suicide note that | would want to have written." —Edwin Shneidman, suicide expert.

Suicide notes are an interesting subject on themselves. What I recommend is never writing it in moments of great distress, since your clarity and reasoning are impaired.

Although it has a very condescending and judgmental tone, this collection of notes is a good reading:

https://archive.org/details/ornottobecollect0000etki

There's notes clearly written right before the act, notes written literarily, full of metaphors, notes written pragmatically. It's interesting.

 

[byou]

"| have never read a suicide note that | would want to have written." —Edwin Shneidman, suicide expert.

Suicide notes are an interesting subject on themselves. What I recommend is never writing it in moments of great distress, since your clarity and reasoning are impaired.

Although it has a very condescending and judgmental tone, this collection of notes is a good reading:

https://archive.org/details/ornottobecollect0000etki

There's notes clearly written right before the act, notes written literarily, full of metaphors, notes written pragmatically. It's interesting.

def gonna read some of this, thanks

 

[snow leopard]

I gave up on writing anything as i already said to everyone what i think but they didn't took me seriously. Oh well, i guess they will find out.

 

[thefarter]

meee omg the ppl bullying me are lowkey making fun of the ones i have written in the past too
so im not leaving one this time. unless i get impulsive and like.. scribble down the names of everyone who has made me feel crazy

 

[betternever2havbeen]

I know what you mean. I feel like everything I write anywhere is cringe anyway. I defo do want to leave one but every time I think about it I think it's gonna go on for several pages with me explaining all my feelings and be so incredibly so self-indulgent and no one's gonna care anyway. I swear I'll be putting off my CTB just because I can't think what to leave in a note. I might leave a shortish note and then just leave diary style entries around explaining the many reasons I did it. I know no one will care but I feel like it's something I have to do.

 

[GodzillasBiggestFan]

it feels really awkward to do but i'd feel bad going without explaining myself

 

[violetforever]

the first and last time i wrote a suicide note was when i was 11 and only had very unplanned and unserious attempts even though my desire to die was real. it was an entire page but i don't remember what i wrote. i just remember i spitefully left out my dad when i wrote everyone i loved at the end because i hated him so much lol. the list of people i love today is so minimal that i don't think i'd even write a note because who would it be for?

 

[no-hope-no-future]

I found writing a suicide note to be An amazing feeling. I was writing something that finally meant it was soon going to be the end of me. I just need to find away to over come my si and and finally finish my self off. Even when I'm try to kill my self I still end up failing
I really am a massive loser

 

[fallingbehind]

Agreed. Its so bad I wrote probably hundreds of notes that I ended up abandoning. Best thing for me was to record my thoughts and then transcribe it.

 

[negi-maguro]

It feels weird for me too. I don't feel like the people and circumstances that pushes me to ctb deserve any form of explanation, reassurance, or even hatred from a note. I ended up drafting a scifi story instead, but this quickly turns into a jab towards society, the current regime, my country, while also retelling of some of my cherished and funniest experience in life or online. idk, I just can't write my own experience and grievances without cringing, I had to mask it in a fictional setting. I don't think I will ever finish it tho, prob gonna ctb first.

 

[loath-to-be]

It's genuinely so fucking bad I literally CANT write anything down. I tried before trust me, so many times but it just feels...ew.

I cant be the only one who feels that way.

I'm not writing one for when I ctb. Objectively speaking I was never a terribly important person alive, and there aren't any people who *simply MUST KNOW* the deep viscera of my unspoken feelings or thoughts towards them if they weren't important enough to be heard while I was alive. I don't have anything beyond a few trinkets, clothes, a few bucks and pennies in the bank that would inspire contentious grabs of any sort. I'll leave as I came, unexplained and without any apparent reason.

 

[Reznor09]

It's genuinely so fucking bad I literally CANT write anything down. I tried before trust me, so many times but it just feels...ew.

I cant be the only one who feels that way.

For me, when I wrote them I'd also cringe at them. I never knew how to write down just how I felt and always came off as self pitying and stupid. I still suck at writing suicide notes. I think I just won't write one when I kill myself. But yeah I understand how you feel.