I feel so guilty of my existence, I feel so ashamed that I exists. It's so high I just isolate myself from people, I avoid people to not annoy them.

[3rdworldsadness]

I feel so guilty. Everything I do I feel like I shouldn't do that even typing this I feel like I will annoy people with my presence. And that's why after college I go straight to my home I feel like I would annoy them, I feel ashamed to be seen, to be perceived as something. I wish I wasn't existed at all. I feel ashamed of crying, of showing my any emotions Infront of others. I work and I hope nobody sees me, I hope that nobody perceived me anything, I feel like I'm just a statistic in this brutal existence. I will die and remember as just a number not a person. My head throbs so much. I know I shouldn't feel this way but people made me this way. They don't see us as human, they only perceived us as something we don't even know.

I feel stupid, ashamed and guilty all the time, I hate that I exists, I hate that people can judge my existence, I hate my parents for dragging me in this gruesome life,I hate god for giving me one of the worst fate known,i hate tomorrow's, i hate , i hate there's no resources anymore in my current situation, i hate I'm a burden. I don't even fear hell now I feel like I belong in hell as my mom said. I'm just a creature from hell that's why my fate ended here and after my suicide I will go to my home hell. I wish my heart stops right now...

 

[DownwardSpiral]

i believe hell isn't a place that exists in the afterlife, it exists here & now. we are all victims. you have been let down by society & your parents, you deserve better.

 

[dreamofnofuture]

I can relate to the hatred of parents for birthing me. To be alive as I am (human, that is) fucking sucks.

Perhaps we already are in hell.

Here's some cat pics to maybe cheer you up, to distract you from shame that's likely perpetuated by the society in which you live.
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(edit: wait, I think I messed something up with the pictures. hold on, gotta find them again)

(edit2: hopefully they can be seen)

 

[ZwartHartje]

I feel so guilty. Everything I do I feel like I shouldn't do that even typing this I feel like I will annoy people with my presence. And that's why after college I go straight to my home I feel like I would annoy them, I feel ashamed to be seen, to be perceived as something. I wish I wasn't existed at all. I feel ashamed of crying, of showing my any emotions Infront of others. I work and I hope nobody sees me, I hope that nobody perceived me anything, I feel like I'm just a statistic in this brutal existence. I will die and remember as just a number not a person. My head throbs so much. I know I shouldn't feel this way but people made me this way. They don't see us as human, they only perceived us as something we don't even know.

I feel stupid, ashamed and guilty all the time, I hate that I exists, I hate that people can judge my existence, I hate my parents for dragging me in this gruesome life,I hate god for giving me one of the worst fate known,i hate tomorrow's, i hate , i hate there's no resources anymore in my current situation, i hate I'm a burden. I don't even fear hell now I feel like I belong in hell as my mom said. I'm just a creature from hell that's why my fate ended here and after my suicide I will go to my home hell. I wish my heart stops right now...

Guilty of what?
Yes it's true that human society is awful, that you're seen as a number instead of a person, that you're meant to be a cog in the machine - all that matters to them is the economy, making money, exploiting the Earth's biosphere and everything else.
But how could any of this be YOUR fault??
It's not! Don't feel guilty for any of these things that are not your fault.
I'm sure you're a fine person, and I'm sorry you've been made to feel this way.
This world would be so much better off without humanity.

As for Hell... maybe it's not so bad, I may be going there too. It's a matter of interpretation. I've always been opposed to the tyrant god of monotheistic religions.
Hell or Heaven is what we make of it... may you find peace and freedom, may we all find that!