Venting I feel like I'm going to ctb soon

[one.way.out]

Something bad happened recently. It's a very specific situation so I'm not going to post it on here, but I feel like shit. I feel very, very close. I've been varying degrees of suicidal, but I think finally something broke. I was still afraid of death, even though I thought about suicide 24/7. But now the thought of death seems soothing. I think I might finally be ready. I still have to wait a couple more months for reasons, but I'm honestly very happy that I can leave. I'm pleased.

 

[jusbug]

I'm going to ctb soon

 

[lizardsoup]

Do you know what method you might choose?

 

[one.way.out]

Do you know what method you might choose?

Full suspension

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you are suffering. Death comforts me as well and I understand how the idea of death can seem like freedom when you are in a hopeless situation. Whatever happens, I hope you find peace.

 

[rosie93]

I'm leaving soon too. I'm thinking now about all these people who are going to be better off without me. I feel like I finally know my purpose in life.