Venting I feel like I'm breaking down

[Gstreater]

I've been slowly breaking down and have been forcing myself to act like I'm okay. My anxiety and depression is at an all time high I've been feeling like I want to cry even though I'm forcing myself to be around people so I don't hurt myself or try to OD again. I hate living, I hate being alone, I hate everything about me I just can't end it all yet. There's things I have to do.

 

[TheHolySword]

I know hard it can be. And I'm so sorry that you are suffering so much. Just remember why you are still here and why you're still going, hold on to it as long as you can until it's time. For me, it's my brother. I have to wait until my life insurance can payout for suicide, which would theoretically be in May of next year. I just keep telling myself to keep going these last few months for him.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

This planet is so fcking whack, it undersandable to feel this way.

 

[thereisnoone]

I too feel like I am slowing like I am physically dying where my body and mind are telling me its giving up

 

[Worndown]

Have you reached out to a medical professional? They might be able to reduce the anxiety and depression. Even a little less will be helpful.

 

[Gstreater]

Have you reached out to a medical professional? They might be able to reduce the anxiety and depression. Even a little less will be helpful.

I've been taking antidepressants and pills for my anxiety. They help a bit but they've been raising my dosage each time i go because it's never enough.

 

[Worndown]

Are there different medications they can try? I believe the effectiveness deceases over time, hence the increased dosages.