Venting I feel like i wasn't meant to be a person

[effie_slxtz]

exactly what the title says tbh. getting a job and being a functioning member of society sounds like the most mind numbingly painful thing imaginable and I don't know how other people can deal with it. I've been struggling to hold down a job for years and the concept of caring about something enough to enjoy doing it every day for the rest of my life is foreign to me. I wish I could pay the rent by sleeping and cutting bc thats basically all I'm good at. I wanna ctb because I genuinely believe I wasnt made to be a person in this world. I'm scared of feeling like this forever

 

[the deadly wizard]

You are correct that you weren't meant to be a person, nobody was. You aren't meant to be anything, you just are. You don't have to be meant to do something in order to do it. You don't have to be meant to be alive in order to continue living, just as you don't have to be meant to die in order to kill yourself.

 

[shouldbedirt]

I feel exactly like this as well...

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I relate so much. I'm so different compared to most people. I just can't relate to most people as I'm not like them at all functionally and cognitively. I honestly feel like an alien in this world rather than a human