iix.em
agony
- Mar 7, 2019
- 17
I'm broken by so much and I have no idea if it's even worth it anymore, I'm miserable every second I find myself alone. I just want to forget and be happy, I just wish there was a way i could erase my thoughts and memories. I just feel like theres nothing more I can do and living with this constant lonely disgusting pain for the rest of my life doesn't seem appealing. I just wish I could forget.. Most of all I just wish I could forgive and forget like a normal person but I'm so hurt and betrayed and knowing myself I know it will never get any better :( I can never be the same and I just wish these things never happened in the first place, why couldn't I be enough? I'm broken and now I'm too far to the point where I have no idea how to fix myself and now I have to pretend to be okay so I don't ruin other people's lives. Why did you do this to me and why did I let this happen to myself, why was I born with this mind why can't I just be okay. I tried so hard to be enough but after everything that happened I will NEVER feel that. I feel so deeply broken and I'm not sure how much longer I can put up with this.
