I enjoy certain things in life, but

[Defenestration]

Hi,

I enjoy certain things in life, like watching sports, music, movies, eating... so I don't have a pressing desire to die right now,

but if I don't die now or in two or three months, I'll be stuck with family grapes and I won't be able to do that anymore...

Moreover, the next five years look like they'll be a nightmare...

I'm torn... Do you have this kind of dilemma?

 

[Bishop]

Au moins tu as le SN déjà, tu es prête.

 

[Defenestration]

I'm not sure my sleep study is still 99/100% accurate with heat, especially since November 2024... and there have been failures with the sleep study, and it's far from a gentle method, but very alarming.

 

[cowboypants]

I still enjoy food or just chatting up with people online. But my life is even more of a shell than before. Like i can almost count by fingers the times I've gone outside in last 8 months

I have a limited amount of money left, of which a major part i need for the final hotel expenses. I still don't feel prepared besides the fact I've lost touch with going outside and the anxiety to even step outside. I feel scared to die that's another thing

 

[Defenestration]

J'aime toujours autant manger ou discuter avec des gens en ligne. Mais ma vie est encore plus vide qu'avant. Je peux presque compter sur les doigts d'une main le nombre de fois où je suis sortie ces huit derniers mois.

Il me reste peu d'argent, dont une grande partie est nécessaire pour les frais d'hôtel. Je ne me sens toujours pas prête, outre le fait que j'ai perdu le contact avec l'idée de sortir et que l'angoisse même de franchir le seuil me paralyse. J'ai peur de mourir, c'est un autre problème.

Have you sévère social anxiety?