Venting i dont want to stop cutting

[Leonard_Bangley39]

everything in life just feels 100 times shittier when i try to stop cutting. and then as soon as i relapse, i have things to look forward to.

today has been awful. i pushed my friend away, i ended up late for work, and half the crew called off so now i have to do even more work. all i want to do is cut. as soon as i get home i dont even think ill eat or unwind or anything. im just gonna grab a fresh razor and keep cutting until theres no space left on both my arms

 

[DownwardSpiral]

cute pfp, very relatable i feel.
work is terrible, and way too stressful. im sorry. but i think eating just a little tiny something first at least would be good. i hope your shift isnt too awful.

 

[Leonard_Bangley39]

cute pfp, very relatable i feel.
work is terrible, and way too stressful. im sorry. but i think eating just a little tiny something first at least would be good. i hope your shift isnt too awful.

Thank you. Work sucks but it's not too bad, but we're definitely not going to get everything finished before the shift ends.

I just know that the managers are gonna b8tch about us not getting everything finoshed, but they literally have only 2 people sticking an entire store, idgaf what they think.

i wish i could've eaten before i left, i prepped some meals yesterday so i could eat in the mornings but i slept in like 15 minutes and the busses came earlier than usual so i didnt have time to eat.

just 4 and a half hours left. as soon as i get home im cutting, then eating, then sleeping