I don't want to exist anymore

[DivineSpark]

I am fucked up.

 

[Jadeith]

Are you? Or someone/something made you believe so?

 

[DivineSpark]

Are you? Or someone/something made you believe so?

I am trapped, there is no way out. My master is cruel and sadistic.

 

[Jadeith]

So it seems to me that your master made you think this way.
Now, would you accept the idea that you were lied to?
That you are not fucked up, jus a victim of cruelty? That there is a way out, just very well hidden in order to keep you compliant?
And this way out is NOT via your own coffin?

 

[DivineSpark]

So it seems to me that your master made you think this way.
Now, would you accept the idea that you were lied to?
That you are not fucked up, jus a victim of cruelty? That there is a way out, just very well hidden in order to keep you compliant?
And this way out is NOT via your own coffin?

I cannot really talk about it, but I can feel his presence in my soul. People just think I am crazy or schizophrenic.

 

[Jadeith]

I cannot really talk about it

And i'm far from pushing you into doing sth you don't want.

I can feel his presence in my soul.

Can i suggest wrestling the "mastery" from your oppressor and taking control instead? Or at least trying to?

People just think I am crazy

People like to think that about things they cannot comprehend. Doesn't mean it's true.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, I also don't wish to exist, all I wish for is to never suffer ever again. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[DivineSpark]

And i'm far from pushing you into doing sth you don't want.

Can i suggest wrestling the "mastery" from your oppressor and taking control instead? Or at least trying to?

People like to think that about things they cannot comprehend. Doesn't mean it's true.

If I would have power to regain my freedom, I would have done it long time ago. Problem is, I gave them rights to my mind, body and soul. Some might call it selling your soul to the devil or something. It is like being in abusive relationship, except, I cannot fight back as they dont have physical form. It is hell on earth, everyday, alone struggling.

 

[Jadeith]

If I would have power to regain my freedom, I would have done it long time ago.

And what if you were told a lie that you have no power but in reality you actually can have it and can get it back? Is there possibility you could believe in that? I won't say that i know how you feel because i don't but i do have my own experience with some nasty motherfucker sitting at the back of the head and saying some ugly things, day and night. And let me tell you - that one is a very convincing fella but still a bloody liar.

 

[Hobowithalaptop]

One thing that's missing though the more I read - the texts could benefit from some errors here and there. Like typos. It would make everything look even more real.