Venting I don't want to be saved

[Lara Francis]

Jumping

 

[Lara Francis]

I failed because the police took me away before I jumped

 

[Karenbaker]

Jumping

What did you jump off did you do any damage

 

[Karenbaker]

I failed because the police took me away before I jumped

Ahh was that the recent one you mentioned where the police turned up at your home what stopped you from jumping before the police arrived ? Have you never considered a partner

 

[Lara Francis]

I was trying to jump from a bridge over the motorway.no I didn't get a chance to jump because so many police arrived.i never should have hesitated.I will know better next time

 

[Lara Francis]

Ahh was that the recent one you mentioned where the police turned up at your home what stopped you from jumping before the police arrived ? Have you never considered a partner

No that was the second time.maybe 3rd time lucky!

 

[Lara Francis]

Innocent members of the public are very good at distracting you too.

 

[Karenbaker]

Be careful I read a story recently where a woman survived a motorway bridge plunge she ran out of a car in a instant and jumped smashing her teeth broke bones but survived lucky not to be in a wheelchair then there was another story someone mentioned on here a lady went to jump from 30/40 feet decided not to slipped fell now in a wheelchair so just be careful

 

[Karenbaker]

I was trying to jump from a bridge over the motorway.no I didn't get a chance to jump because so many police arrived.i never should have hesitated.I will know better next time

Did they talk you down

 

[Karenbaker]

Innocent members of the public are very good at distracting you too.

People are aware to look out for suicidal and get a hero's badge for saving

 

[Lara Francis]

People are aware to look out for suicidal and get a hero's badge for saving

Yes this bridge way too busy and the police talked me down.I was intending to jump in front of a lorry for the best results

 

[ReleaseMe]

I can understand the urge but if you jump in front of a car you are likely to harm or kill others, not good.

 

[goggleboxers]

I've considered the car route when your at your lowest ebb you don't think about others if I was brave enough I'd consider train as I see it as just a fast obstacle taking away the fast there is another human who is going to witness that death and the effect it has on them

 

[Lara Francis]

I can understand the urge but if you jump in front of a car you are likely to harm or kill others, not good.

I know.I have other more solitary methods in mind.sn , exit bag or n.
Jumping is an esay way that does not need advanced planning and can be impulsive and effective.I really would do like to jump from beachy head,this would eliminate having others involved.

 

[goggleboxers]

Be careful in Beachy Head as getting caught will def get you sectioned

 

[ReleaseMe]

I wouldn't care too much about the whole witness and train driver thing either but causing death or severe injury to random people is not cool... There was a time when I considered jumping

I know.I have other more solitary methods in mind.sn , exit bag or n.
Jumping is an esay way that does not need advanced planning and can be impulsive and effective.I really would do like to jump from beachy head,this would eliminate having others involved.

Totally understand you! Im pretty sure I dont have the guts for jumping. But also thought a lot about this method, pretty much for the same reasons.

 

[goggleboxers]

I wouldn't care too much about the whole witness and train driver thing either but causing death or severe injury to random people is not cool... There was a time when I considered jumping


Totally understand you! Im pretty sure I dont have the guts for jumping. But also thought a lot about this method, pretty much for the same reasons.

What stops you jumping ?

 

[ReleaseMe]

What stops you jumping ?

I am terribly afraid of heights. Even standing at the railing of a balcony on the 5th floor or so makes me physically unwell. I'm an anxious person in general.

 

[goggleboxers]

I am terribly afraid of heights. Even standing at the railing of a balcony on the 5th floor or so makes me physically unwell. I'm an anxious person in general.

Ha that's me all over I assume then that the people who jump haven't got vertigo - my body pushes back when I'm near s sheer drop I even have panic attacks driving up a car park ramp in my local city centre where the walk on the outside is tiny !!!

 

[Final Escape]

I am truly unwell

I understand, I really do. We are living in difficult times these days. In some ways things are easier but because we didn't evolve to not have accessible and reliable support networks with lots of family around. I think this is the major reason many pple are suicidal. The breakdown in communication and social cohesion. I like living alone but at the same time I don't like being alone with no secure trusted relationships and social support. Government intrusion into the family and social programs, easy divorce, kids outside of commitment, changing incentives that alter how we behave has a lot to do with why people less secure.

 

[MAIO]

I don't have to die anytime soon(I am young) I just want to. So I am going to. To me, the argument that life is so inherently valuable that an undesirable life is better than nonexistence is incomprehensibly absurd.

 

[Lara Francis]

What stops you jumping ?

As stupid as it sounds,it is the sheer shouting and screaming I hear from my husband not to do it.This is because he does not want me to die alone or taking our son with me.I feel his and my pain combined. it's not from being scared because I am over that.I get warm and exciting feelings when I know my attempt is near.I get angry with him because he doesn't talk to me at any other time and just need to ignore him now and say sod you ! It's what I am doing regardless.life in all its entirety has become senseless and unimportant.A hurse cannot pass me without me thinking how lucky they are.Every tall building or bridge is just seen as a jumping platform.!

 

[goggleboxers]

As stupid as it sounds,it is the sheer shouting and screaming I hear from my husband not to do it.This is because he does not want me to die alone or taking our son with me.I feel his and my pain combined. it's not from being scared because I am over that.I get warm and exciting feelings when I know my attempt is near.I get angry with him because he doesn't talk to me at any other time and just need to ignore him now and say sod you ! It's what I am doing regardless.life in all its entirety has become senseless and unimportant.A hurse cannot pass me without me thinking how lucky they are.Every tall building or bridge is just seen as a jumping platform.!

You wouldn't take your son with you would you?

 

[Lara Francis]

Yes

 

[goggleboxers]

Yes

No don't even I beg you not too as a stranger I get where your coming from lost husband emotionally drained and you do what you feel is absolutely necessary but I'm sure illl be supported on this one let your son grow and make his own decisions ideally his decision would to want his mum in his life

 

[ReleaseMe]

Yes

Please DONT

 

[Lara Francis]

My son has just told me that I am the greatest mum on the universe although there is room for improvement.!
Improvement in what way I asked , I could give him more money.! But other than that I was the best.
I adore our boy but hate my thoughts and impulsiveness which can be very dangerous.I know it's wrong and take on your comments.Thankyou

 

[musicislife]

My son has just told me that I am the greatest mum on the universe although there is room for improvement.!
Improvement in what way I asked , I could give him more money.! But other than that I was the best.
I adore our boy but hate my thoughts and impulsiveness which can be very dangerous.I know it's wrong and take on your comments.Thankyou

He sounds like a good un :)

 

[Lara Francis]

He sounds like a good un :)

He is.

 

[ReleaseMe]

My son has just told me that I am the greatest mum on the universe although there is room for improvement.!
Improvement in what way I asked , I could give him more money.! But other than that I was the best.
I adore our boy but hate my thoughts and impulsiveness which can be very dangerous.I know it's wrong and take on your comments.Thankyou

Its good that you use this forum to share your thoughts, however dark they are. I hope you find the strength to recover. And if not, that you can fight your dark impulses regarding your son. Being a mother must be unimaginably hard. You wouldn't want your son to die if you had a deadly accident or disease, he deserves a chance no matter what.
Thank you for sharing, I hope you don't mind me commenting.