Venting I Don't Want Help...I WANT TO DIE

[AngelTear]

I'm sick of seeking therapy, I'm sick of suicide resources, I'm SICK OF IT ALL !!!
I don't want to get better at this point it's IMPOSSIBLE

I just want to fucking DIE ALREADY
But no I live in a shithole world with a SHIT FAMILY where it's hard to do anything you wanna do

I STILL WANT A FUCKING SHOTGUN
But guess what, I can't even get that!!!
I have to hang myself - which I never wanted in the first place

GUESS WHAT ELSE
After testing/attempting twice my neck and shoulders and back have been in pain non stop for the past few days
It's even making my head hurt, going up to the base of my neck and I'm not totally certain but I'm pretty sure it triggered the pain there
ITS HELL, IT WONT GO AWAY IT WONT STOP

An you know what FUCKING ELSE???
I DONT HAVE HEALTH INSURANCE ANYMORE
And that's ON TOP of having a lousy family and being financially destitute

FUCK EVERYONE WHO WANTS ME TO LIVE
YOU JUST WANT ME TO SUFFER
THERE IS NO QUALITY OF LIFE HERE

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, all I want is to be free from this dreadful, torturous existence that just causes harm and suffering, forcing people to suffer in this existence is just terrible cruelty to me, I hope you find the freedom you are searching for.