Discussion I DON'T UNDERSTAND

[Unattainable666]

I've read a lot about people who commit suicide - young people, middle aged, old people - their reasons for ctb - their methods. I've been wanting to ctb for so many years for so many reasons. Now I ask myself what am I waiting for??? I read where a young person had ctb by jumping, with a gun, hanging, etc. And here I sit an older person whose life is really done. I have no one I would be leaving behind, no kids, family, friends. Fear is the only thing that is holding me back - fear of FAILURE. I've failed at so many things in my life this is the one thing I don't want to fail at. I feel as if I am losing my mind ........

 

[020x]

You're not the only one. Fear holds the most people here.

If you gave all the members of this forum access to illegal drugs like nembutal or heroin. Or simply a firearm, pretty sure 60% of us would've committed already. It's all because suicide prevention in this world did everything to leave us with the most painful and scary methods to make us scared to do it.

 

[ringo99]

You're exactly right. I've wanted to ctb for eight years now but the lack of a relatively painless and quick way to do it has always held me back. Society needs to start recognizing that taking one's own life is a right not a crime and make it easier on people like us who're at the end of our rope

 

[FuneralCry]

I think it makes suicide sound much easier than it really is when you hear of people managing to succeed, I envy those people, I just wish that suicide wasn't so difficult but sadly we exist in a world where it's purposely and cruelly made that way.

 

[nomennescio]

I think it makes suicide sound much easier than it really is when you hear of people managing to succeed, I envy those people, I just wish that suicide wasn't so difficult but sadly we exist in a world where it's purposely and cruelly made that way.

Yup. This exactly. I envy them as well. Makes me feel even shittier about myself. Not even being able to pull this off..