I don't know what to do

[O_oreo.]

I am very tired physically and psychologically, nobody believes me.
I want to die right now, sometimes I have mood swings, I self-harm, I hate myself because I know that deep down I am a horrible, disgusting human being, and originally no one loves me.
I want to give myself death before I continue my shitty life.

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds like you suffer so much, existing really can be so painful and torturous. It must be really hard to deal with being in that situation and I get that it's tiring feeling trapped in an existence that you hate. I hope that you find the freedom that you wish for.

 

[je.suis.prêt]

Can relate. Sometimes I am "ok" other times I am using what little energy I have to read about suicide. That shift can happen in a day.

Being depressed/mentally unwell is super crap because most people can't really help you, and it's not something you can really fix on your own.

Do you mind me asking what age range you fall in?

 

[O_oreo.]

I'm 21 Years old

 

[Anon1337]

Same. No one takes me seriously IRL. People believe me on here.

Have you tried recovery?

 

[O_oreo.]

Mismo. Nadie me toma en serio en la vida real. La gente me cree aquí.

¿Has probado la recuperación?

Recovery?

 

[je.suis.prêt]

I'm 21 Years old

Similar, 23 here. These are supposed to be the good years :/ At least we have this forum to vent in/on. Writing it all out sometimes helps even if momentarily