I dont know what keeps be going

[Wakawaka]

Ive had a really hard life, abused by family. neglected by others, dropped out of college had a few mental break downs and lost most of my friends. felt really alone for a long time. had a really good friend who while he tried to be there for me hurt me so many times that i told myself I must have deserved it. but he did help me find a stable career, i found a boyfriend with so many issues to the point the relationship should have ended. just a toxic relationship. but i put in alot of work to help him change so we could be better for each other. and thats all i had, my friend, my boyfriend, and a possible new start at everything. well after all of that ive been laid off twice, my best friend hasnt talked to me in 6 months suspiciously after i tried to talk to him about how he made me fill. the comversation didnt go well. and my 5 year relationship might be blowing up soon because my boyfriend is a gay christian and apparently never made peace with that. its tearing him up to feel like "god" is sending him messages to leave or he'll burn in hell. he thinks god put me in his life to bring him closer to god. no one will ever understand how much deep hatred I have for religion. i told him i would stick it out because i hoped he could work through it but sometimes it just feels like waiting for it all to end. i bought him a car, helped him move into his own apartment, he says im the perfect boyfriend and hes always the one with issues and hes sorry but none of this feels fair.

well todays my birthday, a bit hard to enjoy it considering everything

 

[U. A.]

Wishing you at least one good thing comes your way on this day (close to your 5-year sasuversary no less)

 

[endlesstranquility]

I be keep going. That's it, that's the post...