i dont know if i have a way out

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i wish there was a way to end my life that's not so violent. i wish maid existed here so they can take my life peacefully. i don't live a bad life, but i've given up. my mom is so controlling, and i know nothing of the world that i can barely survive without her. my dads an unempathetic individual who supports me and my sibling with money but that's all. and my boyfriend js admitted he wants to use me for money.

i cant do this anymore. im js going along with life, buying things here and there so i can be a little happy. i hate my face, i don't like my body. i have no will to live or be alive, and i want to end it already.

but part of me wants to live to see if i can make a life for myself. i don't know what to do though. i want to get far, far away from my family but they financially support me. i want to break up with my boyfriend but he still gives me that little bit of love i crave. i wish i'd js die already so i don't have to these make hard decisions. i've genuinely started to hate all of them. i don't want any professional help atp, i js want it all to end for me. i'm so tired of everyone and all this. please please i want it to end bro. and i cant express myself so freely to anyone i know cause i don't wanna seem like i'm looking for attention, cause i'm not. i js wanna get this out there. sometimes i wish someone would come along and save me from all this.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I also wish I could access a peaceful way out of here but unfortunately I can't since I'm living with controlling parents meaning that I have no way to kill myself. In my case, I just have to suffer until I die naturally. Fuck, it's so scary and horrific to think about

 

[FuneralCry]

I also just wish for a way to painlessly cease existing, it just feels so cruel and horrible to me how the option of euthanasia is denied, personally I just want peace from this existence and I suffer so much from feeling trapped here, I understand feeling so tired of it all. But anyway I wish you the best.