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I Need a few months to think
- Apr 2, 2023
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I feel fucking crazy all of the time. Im so scared and angry all of the time. Ive known my boyfriend for years, hes very important to mw and i feel like a piece of shit acting like a emotional wreck around him all of the time. Im never the same person for more than a day. Im mean and then obsessive then cold and i feel horrible. Every day my brain is on fire. I try so hard i work every day i do the self care but i cant handle myself. Ive suffered my whole life. I was raised by my dad and he put me through every kind if abuse in the book. My childhood fucked me up in every way imaginable, I moved in with my mom at 14 but shes not mentally stable to even support herself so now im 21 taking care of her. I was diagnosed with general anxiety years and years ago but i think im probably borderline. My dad had a list of mental disorders and was institutionalized many times and had a long list of suicide attempts and almost killed my siblings. I dont want to become like that. Im doing what i need to do for now but im going to hit a breaking point.
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