Venting I don't know how much longer I can wait

[theevildoctors]

For a little bit of context, I planned on ctb sometime in late December of this year, mainly because that date is very special to me for reasons I won't get into.

However, ever since I decided on a day, my life has progressively gotten so, so much worse. I don't know how much longer can take this. I want to die right now. December is only a few months away, yet i feel so impatient. besides, I bet if I died right now, nobody would care or notice.

does anyone else feel like this too? is there anything I can do to pass time?

 

[estoycansada]

I feel exactly the same way. It comes and goes but things are falling apart and I'm progressively getting worse and worse. Hopefully things get better for you, friend. I'm rooting for you.

 

[theevildoctors]

I feel exactly the same way. It comes and goes but things are falling apart and I'm progressively getting worse and worse. Hopefully things get better for you, friend. I'm rooting for you.

i hope things get better for you as well, you've got this

 

[Rihan]

I can relate. Sometimes I find something to distract me, but ultimately the need to die is still there. It's not a want, it's a need.

Wishing you the best.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand as all I want is to be free from this torturous, dreadful existence, all I want is the peace of non-existence, I just want to never suffer again, to me existing will always be torture, I'd never wish for any of this, I hope you find peace.

 

[Matchaaa]

I might feel the same way, especially some very unpleasant things have happened to me.
I often play video games or watch my favorite TV shows and movies
hope things go well for you :) and I hope you find a way to help you feel better