I dont know how i feel

[ANONYMOUSM]

so some of my friends are worried and genuinely want things to get better for me and they are taking time out of their day to help me and even if i tell them im ok and don't need their help they ignore me they are genuinely praying for me to get better and i dont know how i feel i know that my life is hopeless now and there isn't going back to teh way it was and i messed up long time ago and im planning to ctb soon and i sort of don't care how they feel if i die i dont know what im feeling

 

[FuneralCry]

To me it's really understandable just wishing to be free from all the suffering, existing certainly can be so dreadful and I just think that so many people won't even try to understand. But anyway I wish you the best with your plans.

 

[SaltySuh]

I don't want to sound like an ass (since I don't know about your situation), but I would take their help. I remember when I had just graduated high school and my parents tried to help me enroll at junior college. At the time, I refused their help. I wasn't doing so well at the time, so I misconstrued their attempts to help me as some sort of intrusion into my miserable life. I regret not accepting their help since not only am I still depressed, but I'm now also a NEET whose made no progress towards anything better in life. If people offer stuff for free, take it.