people despise us anyway. they want girls who look like me dead anyway. nobody wants ugly girls around. so why can't i apply for assisted suicide? why is that so controversial? people don't even consider me human, let alone female. if all ugly girls were somehow wiped off the face of the earth, everyone would celebrate. nobody wants us here. so why am i forced to keep going? i don't even contribute to society. i'm unemployed due to my disability (social anxiety that i developed because of all the bullying i went through BECAUSE of my face and body). again, why can't i apply for assisted suicide when the world wants me dead? i hate it
There is no worse fate than being an introverted homely female born into a shitty family. We learn our place early. We are mistreated by our mothers and ignored by our fathers. It affects every facet of our lives, not just being unable to find a mate. It doesn't matter how kind or helpful we are, It doesn't matter how hard we work to be able to support ourselves, we are overlooked, mocked, and/or used as a scapegoat or pawn. Unattractive males are not judged so harshly and are afforded more opportunities for gainful employment and can usually find a mate, since women are less hung up on looks than men are.
The reason we can't just check out at will is because society needs scapegoats to blame and feel superior to. We are the easiest bullying targets. Bullies need us to absorb their negative energy. We go away, they get frustrated and go into withdrawals because they get dopamine supply from us.
So sorry sister, it's never going to happen. We at least have free agency to take ourselves out, challenging as that may be. If there is a will, there is a way.
Just the ones you notice. Plain Janes disappear into the wallpaper
Thanks for understanding. I wasnt trying to be mean.
You are probably a great guy. But as a guy there are biological things you can't help, like wanting attractive women and not noticing the unattractive ones. It's not your fault, you mean well.
How do you know you're ugly tho? I'm seriously asking. Is it cuz they've told you or you've felt that way and what has made you feel that way other than the bullying.
Not speaking for the OP, but as an older woman who has been esthetically challenged her whole life post-puberty I can speak to this.
It's when you go out and guys dont see you. It's when gal pals love going to bars, clubs, etc. with you because they look prettier than they actually are compared to you. I can't tell you how many times I inadvertently helped my friends find boyfriends, even husbands. I should have charged a fee!
It's when you have a great rapport with guys online and when you meet, they run for the hills. Or hide in the bushes and stand you up. Countless times this has happened.
Then you say screw it, I'll just put all my energy into my career. You soon find out that no matter how hard you work, how much education/certifications you earn, your qualifications are overlooked while jobs and promotions go to the lesser qualified but better looking candidate. The older you get the harder it is because you haven't been able to establish yourself like most people.
Then to add insult to injury, your mother remarries and replaces you with the stepdaughter she didn't raise because that gal is stunning and living the American dream with a husband and kids. Now your mother has the grandchildren you were unable to provide. Doesn't matter you have more time to help her in her old age, you are discarded because she's ashamed of you and image means everything.
No, it's not just perception, this is a real phenomenon.
