I don't feel like this life is worth it for me anymore

[mold]

Everything you said I relate to so hard its kinda scary haha. I hope things get better for you, seriously

 

[Kanau_Nano]

Everything you said I relate to so hard its kinda scary haha. I hope things get better for you, seriously

Thank you. I wish you didn't relate so much I hope you get better too. Have as good of a day as you can!

 

[HeyBoogahJr]

How did you mess up? And yeah I've met people i like a lot lol. If anyone shows me any genuine seeming affection I tend to get obsessed with them until i destroy everything in some way. I'm sick for sure. I've never been in love though. I've had people tell me they love me, but I just don't feel it.

That cafe sounds fun. I can appreciate good looking men like you lol I might get anxious there tho. I also wanna go to a maid cafe. I like the outfits! I chose Japan cause it looked cool and I like the TV shows/anime books etc. I've never been to a city that big so that's exciting. Don't you think?

I wish you could go on that trip before you do that to yourself. It would be awesome for you to enjoy yourself as much as possible! You might still go with someone you love. Life is unpredictable for sure.

I've had the same thoughts about alternative universes. I wonder what a happy me is like.

That's awesome you're proud of all your hard work!! I'm proud of you too! I always like to see people suffering eventually do well in life! You got a lot of good going for you! Anxiety is so hard to deal with, but I believe in you!!

I know I'm not trying to cause stress, but I still feel uncomfortable with it :((

I'm glad you got here and irl people to tell how you feel. It's very important to be understood and let it all out! Be careful if you tell a mandatory reporter about your plan to ctb. You could go to the hospital. Maybe that would be good for you and you'd like it though? It helps people.

I wish you didn't feel the need to ctb you deserve to be happy! You are a cool seeming person from what you've said. Btw I'm warning you any method will be terrifying. I have experience.

Digital Circus is awesome! I'm gonna see the movie too. I'm really curious if they can get out.

I would like to do a lot of things lol

Mess up isn't the right term maybe. I tried killing myself last week and it proved to me how no one seems to care. So I guess it doesn't matter anymore.

I understand what you mean by obsession and ruining things, I've certainly done that before too. I eventually learned very later on about limerence. I haven't experienced love either.

I'm sorry to hear that. I hope you'll feel love one day too. Does wanting to loved really make you sick though? It's such a human feeling that everyone deserves.

Yummy muscle men in Japan. What's not to appreciate. I'd be a little nervous too. But it would steer me in the direction of overly flirtatious and possibly endearing.

I've been to a maid cafe at Manchester anime con. It was pretty nice. I enjoyed it. I got some photos too. I'll share them in DM. I'd like so cute in a maid outfit. Too bad Halloween is too far away.

Same, Japan looks so cool in the anime and shows. What anime do you watch? Yeah going to an entirely new place sounds incredibly exciting. Of course I think so. That trip would be lovely. I hope you get to go.

I'd love that. I hope you get to go before the end too. But I'd rather not deal with airport by myself. I haven't been since I was 5. And my autism. God. I think I'd be too overwhelmed.

Who would you wanna go with?

It sure is an interesting thought huh?

All the different yous. The different perspectives you can get. Maybe it'd be enough to give you hope or maybe to see how bad life is for you.

I appreciate it and I see that your trying too. I hope you can get through these hard times too. Or come to wherever you wanna be. I hope it works out well. Whatever you decide.

What make you feel uncomfortable?

Thank you, I know I have to be careful. I don't think he'll listen. Or understand. He doesn't seem to understand me anymore. I thought he did. But maybe he isn't that person for me either.
But fuck the hospital. I'm just gonna fake it until they're off my back. It's annoying as hell.

I hope you find someone you can speak with.

Of course. I understand. This cruel world won't give me an easy death. No one deserves to feel suicidal, we deserve all the love and kindness to get through this, I'm sure your wonderful and amazing too. You seem so nice and fresh.

I can't wait. I got the tickets for my cinema.

What are those things then (can you respond in DMs)

 

[bpdscared9]

Come here, give me a huge hug, one of my biggest fears in life is losing you, I refuse to. I hope your family would be eternal to make you stay here with me and your friends, Nano. Let me hold you tight for last time.

 

[Kanau_Nano]

Come here, give me a huge hug, one of my biggest fears in life is losing you, I refuse to. I hope your family would be eternal to make you stay here with me and your friends, Nano. Let me hold you tight for last time.

you're always very nice thank you

 

[Matchaaa]

I'm really sorry you're going through this. I hope you're feeling a bit better soon.
Sending you love — I can relate to this, and I know the feeling of guilt too. It really sucks.
I hope you're able to find some small moments of joy, even if they don't last long.

 

[Kanau_Nano]

I'm really sorry you're going through this. I hope you're feeling a bit better soon.
Sending you love — I can relate to this, and I know the feeling of guilt too. It really sucks.
I hope you're able to find some small moments of joy, even if they don't last long.

Still feeling very upset, but hopefully I feel better soon. Life's just been getting to me bad.

Thank you I hope you've been doing okay today. You still self sabotaging? I really relate to that. It hurts to see others going through that too

 

[Matchaaa]

Still feeling very upset, but hopefully I feel better soon. Life's just been getting to me bad.

Thank you I hope you've been doing okay today. You still self sabotaging? I really relate to that. It hurts to see others going through that too

Yes, I think I still struggle with that a bit. I sometimes unconsciously hold myself back from getting better because I'm afraid that once I actually stabilize, I'll have to face a lot of responsibilities—like work, weight management, and finances—as well as the pressure from my environment

I hope you're doing okay today too. I know a lot of things that help us improve take energy to maintain, but I hope life is treating you gently.

 

[blisterinthesun]

Hey, I know it's hard to think this way, but please go a bit easier on yourself. You are not your mental health. The real you is the person who is living life and dealing with all the struggles that come with that, even if you're struggling, on top of having those problems, and that is frickin amazing. I know this doesn't fix all your problems but please give yourself some slack.

On your therapist, do you like them? Are they a good fit? Because if not, maybe it's a good idea to look for someone else. You shouldn't be coming away from therapy feeling disempowered and like you're a lost cause.