I died. Was given life saving procedures. I wish i was never brought back.

[usernamehere]

I overdosed. I texted my girlfriend inconsiderate words so she called 911. I was given cpr and defibrillator. I was on breathing tubes. Life support in the icu. When i died there was nothing just black. Scary yet suffering after a decade of treatment is scary. Im not going to attempt. I just wish i had died. Now im more physically disabled and in alot of other ways im in a worse situation. I wish i never. Or that it had.. now i just have to cope with even more. Like i said im not going to attempt i don't want to go through being in the hospital for a month or more again. I don't want to be more disabled. I also suffered a brain injury. I just made my life worse. This isn't a warning its me venting. All that's left to do is cope with a life that already felt too much. Now its so much more

 

[finallydone]

i'm sorry to hear you have to endure this and i wish your luck was better than this

 

[tiredofliving_]

I can relate. I was also brought back last year. I'm angry every day they brought me back. I just want to find peace. So sorry for your pain.

 

[maniac116]

Overdose is terribly undependable & risky. I'm sorry you were at that point in your life.
I hope you're able to find peace

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand just wanting to be gone, it's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[James Sunderland]

That sounds like it was a really, really scary and overwhelming experience. Of course, you feel this way, especially when it feels like everything just got even more difficult. It's just not fair that you have to deal with even more on top of everything that you were already dealing with. And I know that this isn't about trying to find the bright side here, I get it. You feel any way you need to about this. If it's going to help you talk about what you're up against now or just to let more of this out, I'm here to listen.

 

[LunarLight]

Sorry to hear that, you seemed so close. May I ask you what you tried to overdose on?

 

[usernamehere]

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I overdosed. I texted my girlfriend inconsiderate words so she called 911. I was given cpr and defibrillator. I was on breathing tubes. Life support in the icu. When i died there was nothing just black. Scary yet suffering after a decade of treatment is scary. Im not going to attempt. I just wish i had died. Now im more physically disabled and in alot of other ways im in a worse situation. I wish i never. Or that it had.. now i just have to cope with even more. Like i said im not going to attempt i don't want to go through being in the hospital for a month or more again. I don't want to be more disabled. I also suffered a brain injury. I just made my life worse. This isn't a warning its me venting. All that's left to do is cope with a life that already felt too much. Now its so much more

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[TennTrixie]

I'm so sorry you went through this. this is my biggest fear about the whole prospect of CTB... it going wrong and ending up in worse shape than I already am. When I first started researching methods, I looked into possible OD on all medicines available to me and discovered it probably wouldn't work.