I couldn't do it

[NoReasonToLive2023]

So two days ago I finally tried to end it all. I went to the former railway viaduct. I sent my note to my friends. As what I thought would be my final act, I sent a message to my mum telling her I loved her.

I placed my phone down for someone to find.

I climbed on the two sets of railings.

Then the fear hit me. Fear of failing, fear of what would happen if I didn't land in a way that would make sure I died.

I couldn't bring myself to finish the job. I just didn't have the bottle.

It's definitely not a coward's way out. It takes IMMENSE bravery.

 

[ADBoy777]

It's definitely not easy, even for the bravest person on earth.
Maybe consider try more comfortable and less brutal method

 

[lostintheloop]

I think jumping is particularly hard when it comes to SI because you can see what's coming and it really does go against all instincts. I understand the fear of failing too as can be horrible consequences if not high enough.

How are you feeling about not doing it now ? Are you going to try again or different method or wanting to try to live for a while ? Whatever you do I hope you find peace.