Venting I Can't Take This Anymore

[OutOfThisBody]

I want to go NOW. I want to get out of this body NOW. I have to wait 11 days.

I wasn't meant to be weak. I was meant to be physically intimidating and big. I was meant for better things.

Every waking minute in this body is torture. I can't get comfortable when I remember how I look. I DON'T WANT IT! I DONT CARE IF YOU DISAGREE IT'S MY LIFE! I WANT OUT NOW!

 

[FuneralCry]

I certainly understand that it's so dreadful and torturous suffering in this existence, I also just wish to be free from it all but anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you find the freedom you are searching for.

 

[Anonymousa]

Everyone deserve to be able to die whenever they want to as its their life. Its unfair that we are forceful brought here sometimes in a body we may despise and are uncomfortable. It can really hard to try and be comfortable in your body whether through changing it or trying to accept what it is now.

 

[trencher]

I want to go NOW. I want to get out of this body NOW. I have to wait 11 days.

I wasn't meant to be weak. I was meant to be physically intimidating and big. I was meant for better things.

Every waking minute in this body is torture. I can't get comfortable when I remember how I look. I DON'T WANT IT! I DONT CARE IF YOU DISAGREE IT'S MY LIFE! I WANT OUT NOW!

I certainly understand where you're coming from and I am definitely not here to judge your decision. Countless suicides are caused just because someone was born into the wrong gender / race or because someone was born with a special condition that doesn't allow them to enjoy their life. Being born in itself is a huge risk that you never asked to take meaning that there are pretty good odds that you are born into a life that does not fit you.

I genuinely hope you find a peaceful ending whether it's death or coming to terms with your existence. I am not here to judge and I fully understand why you would want to CTB in your case. Wish you the best.