bloodandshavedhead
Member
- Jan 15, 2026
- 29
I know this is probably typical of me, but I cannot take living anymore, I don't want to live a life where I'm constantly stressed out by my studies, sometimes I hope I wake up and I get cancer so at least in someway I can be at peace, there's no expectations for me to be great, no expectations of a fast past course. I can't handle this anymore, I can't handle crying, it feels so fucking pointless to cry anymore, I can't keep up with my other peers to have straight A's, a 4.0 Gpa, everything else with academic bullshit, It feels like I'm drowning in my own body, I'm running out of oxygen to breathe or stay alive. I feel like a burden to my sister particularly, I'm sorry she had to give up her dreams to take care of me, sometimes I wish I was dead so she could go travel the world, there's no amount of self guilt that I can really do. I feel like a stupid little infant crying out for its mother when I think of this. I keep saying I can't handle this yet I keep on waking up everyday, I just want it to end. I wish that my life could be given to someone else who's way deserving, someone who actually wants to live, someone who wishes they had more time. I'm already eighteen and so pathetic, I know more people younger than me with the will to live. I'm so tired of this constant feeling, I want my suffering to end already, I hope I can maybe reincarnate into a better life.
