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I can’t take any more

Iamtired

Iamtired

Experienced
Sep 30, 2023
208
I'm in so much pain. I told myself I'd wait for my fiancé to come back but I can't. I have to leave this body.


Please if anyone will DM me I need help taking the SN. i don't have an anti emetic
 
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wildflowers1996

wildflowers1996

Mage
Oct 14, 2023
563
I'm so sorry you're in so much pain :(
have you and your fiancé separated? or do you just mean you're waiting to hear from them?
 
Iamtired

Iamtired

Experienced
Sep 30, 2023
208
wildflowers1996 said:
I'm so sorry you're in so much pain :(
have you and your fiancé separated? or do you just mean you're waiting to hear from them?
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Hello 🖤 thank you. No. We are not separated he is the best thing to ever come into my life. He just left last week to take care of buisness things. I know he is going to be devastated. I just am in so much pain- it does not have anything to do with him.
wildflowers1996 said:
I'm so sorry you're in so much pain :(
have you and your fiancé separated? or do you just mean you're waiting to hear from them?
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I know it sounds so selfish to do this when I have someone who loves and cares for me deeply but I am in so much physical and emotional pain from what a doctor did to me.
 
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wildflowers1996

wildflowers1996

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Oct 14, 2023
563
I'm so sorry you're suffering so much
is the physical pain permanent? is there anything which eases it?
how would you feel about calling your fiancé?
 
Iamtired

Iamtired

Experienced
Sep 30, 2023
208
wildflowers1996 said:
I'm so sorry you're suffering so much
is the physical pain permanent? is there anything which eases it?
how would you feel about calling your fiancé?
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No unfortunately I'm left with nerve damage from this procedure. He cut my head open. I just want this to stop now
 
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SVEN

SVEN

I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
Apr 3, 2023
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If you are in a desperate position please be very cautious about disclosing details to anyone contacting you direct. There are scammers on any online site.
 
Iamtired

Iamtired

Experienced
Sep 30, 2023
208
SVEN said:
If you are in a desperate position please be very cautious about disclosing details to anyone contacting you direct. There are scammers on any online site.
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Hi SVEN thank you. I have the SN I ordered it back in October. I have everything but the anti emetic
I hear you can't take it without the anti emetic.
I tried to call him. He's out. I don't want to bother him anymore
wildflowers1996 said:
I'm so sorry you're suffering so much
is the physical pain permanent? is there anything which eases it?
how would you feel about calling your fiancé?
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I try to call him. But he's out. I also just don't want to bother him anymore
 
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embrace_release

end me
Mar 13, 2021
33
hey, I would advise against an attempt without everything ready. I'm also very positive that you're not gonna bother him when you're in pain, after all, he's your fiancé. Sorry that you're hurting so much, maybe try to call him again? This situation is.. urgent, to say the least.
 
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Iamtired

Iamtired

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Sep 30, 2023
208
embrace_release said:
hey, I would advise against an attempt without everything ready. I'm also very positive that you're not gonna bother him when you're in pain, after all, he's your fiancé. Sorry that you're hurting so much, maybe try to call him again? This situation is.. urgent, to say the least.
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Thank you 🖤 he hears me complain a lot. It drains him he's only human. I'd rather talk to people on here when I can't talk to my therapist. My body seeking homeostasis badly or out
 
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wildflowers1996

wildflowers1996

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Oct 14, 2023
563
is there any painkiller you can take to ease the pain until you're able to speak with him?
 
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Iamtired

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Sep 30, 2023
208
wildflowers1996 said:
is there any painkiller you can take to ease the pain until you're able to speak with him?
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I wish. I take ssri & anti anxiety meds. It doesn't help. I'm all but bedridden today and I am tired of asking for help from people who just want to keep me here in this pain. Why is it so hard to leave 😞
 
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hopeless08

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Dec 8, 2023
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Iamtired said:
I'm in so much pain. I told myself I'd wait for my fiancé to come back but I can't. I have to leave this body.


Please if anyone will DM me I need help taking the SN. i don't have an anti emetic
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I'm sorry you're suffering so much but maybe you should wait for your fiancé is not a good idea to ctb on impulse.
Things can go wrong
 
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sash

sash

f/uk seeking partner to vanish with
Oct 1, 2023
202
Oh Im so sorry to hear.
Sending you my love & thinking of you

:heart: 🐈
 
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Iamtired

Iamtired

Experienced
Sep 30, 2023
208
guess I should get off this forum if I want to recover. Thanks guys 🫂 gonna give it a try again.
sash said:
Oh Im so sorry to hear.
Sending you my love & thinking of you

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Sash you know me - I have the highs and lows. I don't want to do anything on impulse though as person above mentioned 😞
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I'm sorry you're suffering so much but maybe you should wait for your fiancé is not a good idea to ctb on impulse.
Things can go wrong
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Yes you're right. 😔 just want this pain to stop. He knows about my activity on the forum. Isn't thrilled but who else can I vent to and not hurt them repeatedly
 
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sash

sash

f/uk seeking partner to vanish with
Oct 1, 2023
202
Iamtired said:
guess I should get off this forum if I want to recover. Thanks guys 🫂 gonna give it a try again.

Sash you know me - I have the highs and lows. I don't want to do anything on impulse though as person above mentioned 😞
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Hi hun.
Yes I know you :)
You need in this moment to do whats right for you to calm the spiral.
You started a thread & got some good advice. The impulse passed.

Hope to see you back again before I go.
Hugs to you
Take care x
 
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