SecretDissociation
Suicide enthusiast
- Sep 11, 2022
- 176
Oh, guess who forgot a meeting they had at 1700, that they confirmed they could attend in the morning. Me. Because I had silly little breakdown an hour ago, dissociated, saw my phone checked it and bam two messages saying how they don't appreciate not being told if I am coming or not. I hate people. I thought I set a reminder, it didn't go off. But damn it. Damn it I'm trying so hard to be functioning right now. I'm trying I swear I am.
My friend just died just just be patient with me for just a little bit okay. Can, can people just give it a break? Is empathy too difficult to muster? Is forgiveness not a thing? Why do I forgive people for being late or forgetting to hangout? I know it was a semi-professional mentor meeting, I know. I know. But just just say that you left because and leave it at that. You don't need to give me a paragraph about how you traveled all the way here. We've all done that before. Traveled for something and ended up having to travel back home because something cancelled or something happened.
It's not my fault I had a breakdown. It's not my fault I have a dogshit support network. First, its stay alive, then its go to work, then its go to university, then its do assignments, then its don't self-harm, then its don't kill yourself, then its try to be positive, then its this is how life is. I just want to be able to breath. Can not one person just understand the same way I understand? If it was my choice I'd be dead, but I can't find my damn carotid arteries so just chill.
Just give me a break. I can't function anymore, god forbid I miss one fucking meeting. God forbid I have to not mask in front of your white ass privileged face. Just give it a break. God give me a break. As in kill me.
What's wrong with functioning people?
My friend just died just just be patient with me for just a little bit okay. Can, can people just give it a break? Is empathy too difficult to muster? Is forgiveness not a thing? Why do I forgive people for being late or forgetting to hangout? I know it was a semi-professional mentor meeting, I know. I know. But just just say that you left because and leave it at that. You don't need to give me a paragraph about how you traveled all the way here. We've all done that before. Traveled for something and ended up having to travel back home because something cancelled or something happened.
It's not my fault I had a breakdown. It's not my fault I have a dogshit support network. First, its stay alive, then its go to work, then its go to university, then its do assignments, then its don't self-harm, then its don't kill yourself, then its try to be positive, then its this is how life is. I just want to be able to breath. Can not one person just understand the same way I understand? If it was my choice I'd be dead, but I can't find my damn carotid arteries so just chill.
Just give me a break. I can't function anymore, god forbid I miss one fucking meeting. God forbid I have to not mask in front of your white ass privileged face. Just give it a break. God give me a break. As in kill me.
What's wrong with functioning people?
