Venting I can’t decide.

[delta2]

for some reason painless drugs scare me more than the idea of shooting myself, disemboweling myself, and being run over by a train. I don't know if it's that it's too easy? I don't know. I'm scared and I don't know what to do.

 

[TornReality]

Being scared is natural...
There's a lot of what if's that come along with anything.
To me... takes less than a second to pull a trigger. So a gun is my preferred method. Setting up the situation to even get a gun to use, is more complicated.

 

[pauly369]

Im toying with the idea of a quick and brutal method.
Maybe a homemade guillotine ?
The only drug I would ever consider would be Nembutal.
But I seriously doubt I will ever get hold of it now.

 

[delta2]

Being scared is natural...
There's a lot of what if's that come along with anything.
To me... takes less than a second to pull a trigger. So a gun is my preferred method. Setting up the situation to even get a gun to use, is more complicated.

Like what's the word for not wanting to die but being chronically sick of living? I want to believe I'd pull the trigger, take the pill, or plunge the knife, but I'm so stuck. I haven't done nearly enough and there's a sick feeling of hope that I'll be able to

 

[Freebandzgang]

Im toying with the idea of a quick and brutal method.
Maybe a homemade guillotine ?

I am very curious about this method, ive heard that you are conscious for a few seconds after. I always wonder if they feel the pain or not.

 

[Halfhourdays]

A guillotine seems kind of unnecessarily cartoonist.

You'd definitely make the news.

 

[pauly369]

I am very curious about this method, ive heard that you are conscious for a few seconds after. I always wonder if they feel the pain or not.

Yeah, Ive heard that too.
I think a person would probably be way too shocked to be bothered by pain, maybe IDK.