I am thinking of becoming an ascetic, any suggestions?

[Parnate]

I was an agnostic But, since last few months I am developing faith in god. , since last few weeks I have been chanting various mantras while meditating. While I do that I often get this feeling of bliss and love being in that meditative state. I often feel energy and vibrations while I do that.
There are plenty of monasteries in India, where ascetics live. The ascetics depend on the alms and food that people give them and spend most of their time chanting the name of god.
I am thinking of doing the same.
While I don't like to ask for help or mercy, I feel that is far better than being a corporate wage slave. I ll evade all the responsibilities and worries of a normal life. It is an escape for me.
Don't know what to do, please give suggestions.

 

[U. A.]

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[Tobacco]

For some time I wanted to do this. It saddens me that if I even afford to get to Thailand for ordination as Buddhist monk, I won't be accepted because I need mental health medication.