I am terrified my family will have to vacate our rented flat after my suicide

[pleaseletmeperish]

Please engage with this post if okay; I am feeling very weak and powerless. I just want to feel less alone.

We can't afford to shift anywhere. We don't have the money for a new rental deposit plus the shifting charges. We are drowning in debt. My elderly father's workplace is close by so we can't shift neighborhoods. Our relatives may not lend us money.

Even if our (very kind) landlord allows them to stay, the neighbours might be malicious. My household does make a lot of noise when fighting already; I have had a few loud breakdowns myself. I wish I could apologise to them for this. As far as I know, relations with the neighbours are fine, but I know that could change anytime they acknowledge the dysfunction.

I just pray my family is allowed some compassion.

Are you in a similar boat?

 

[Unsure and Useless]

I wouldn't say I'm in a similar boat, but I understand the sentiment. I currently live with one family member so that we can commute to our respective obligations (me to university, them to work) in the old residence of a late relative. However, because I live in a metropolitan area, I have to CTB in this house, and my family member doesn't have the funds to move anywhere else right now. I don't think anyone will kick this relative out of the house, but I'm afraid they won't be able to live there after I CTB due to the trauma

If it is possible for you, try looking for a hotel/motel to stay at (if you live in a city) or visit wooded areas that have less foot traffic (if you live near an area full of trees). Otherwise, if you must CTB in your flat, try buying materials (like tarp) that you can cover the ground in as well as try to add a physical barrier between you and your family. For instance, if you're going to CTB in a room, do so behind closed doors with a warning on it making it clear that there is a corpse in there

I hope you're able to find some peace, OP, and I'm sorry your living situation is like this

 

[tiokapaws]

Like the other person in this thread, I'm not in this exact scenario but I can get what you're feeling somewhat. Like it'd be easiest for me to ctb in my house, but I live with 7 other people and I worry what complications would arise from that. Plus, if the police show up to take the body or whatever our neighbours as nosey as they are, will begin to talk. I think I might just book a hotel in the city nearby. Whatever happens though, like you said, I hope you and your family will be alright.