Hey folks,
Rob here. I've been through a ridiculously difficult period. I went through a psychotic event, sold me house, quit my career, sent everyone psychotic messages and ruined my image, got on drugs, got 1.5 million dollars stolen when I was bipolar manic and high, went to a psych ward twice, became homeless, owe the IRS possibly more than a million dollars, got diagnosed as bipolar , have severe PTS and complex PTS, was molested. I was depressed beyond belief. I have some medical conditions that are lifelong.
My mind was literally racing 24 hours a day and I did not have a single fucking moment of peace. I could not sleep. I felt no hope and was super scared of a failed suicide attempt.
I tried partial hanging multiple times. I scoured the posts for everything SN related and bought the SN from 3 different sources. I bought the test kits but the fucking tests were unreliable. I tasted the SN. I planned for months different ways to do the SN. I setup other ways of suiciding. I pointed a gun at my head. In my mouth. I watched more videos than you can imagine.
1.5 million people attempt suicide each year in America. (That number is probably really low because of poor reporting).Only 50,000 people succeed at committing suicide. That means that only 1 in about 30 attempts are successful. That would absolutely fucking suck for me... Like the worst kind of failure in life. Again to the psych ward, etc.
Then, things changed. I found a breathing practice that is the mother fucking bomb for clearing my racing mind. Things changed. After 10 psych meds, I found one that worked for me. I found a doctor I could honestly talk with (after making sure that they wouldn't immediately send me to a psych ward). Then I found a trauma release process. Freaking money showed up. Not enough for the IRS thing but a small freaking miracle. Things happened that I thought could not possibly happen.
The breathing techniques have changed my life. My mind slowed down. Things changed.
If anyone wants to chat or learn the breathing techniques I learned, I am happy to chat. I'm not here much anymore but you can PM me. If I don't respond, I'm @rob3108 on Telegram.
PS: I love the SaSu because it's freedom of speech and was on SaSu at least 5-10 times per day.I am super grateful for the people I've chatted with here. Sasu was my only safe space to discuss what was really going through my head. I am not anti suicide. Each person has to make their own call.
The universe doesn't give a dog a tail to heavy to manage.
Rob here. I've been through a ridiculously difficult period. I went through a psychotic event, sold me house, quit my career, sent everyone psychotic messages and ruined my image, got on drugs, got 1.5 million dollars stolen when I was bipolar manic and high, went to a psych ward twice, became homeless, owe the IRS possibly more than a million dollars, got diagnosed as bipolar , have severe PTS and complex PTS, was molested. I was depressed beyond belief. I have some medical conditions that are lifelong.
My mind was literally racing 24 hours a day and I did not have a single fucking moment of peace. I could not sleep. I felt no hope and was super scared of a failed suicide attempt.
I tried partial hanging multiple times. I scoured the posts for everything SN related and bought the SN from 3 different sources. I bought the test kits but the fucking tests were unreliable. I tasted the SN. I planned for months different ways to do the SN. I setup other ways of suiciding. I pointed a gun at my head. In my mouth. I watched more videos than you can imagine.
1.5 million people attempt suicide each year in America. (That number is probably really low because of poor reporting).Only 50,000 people succeed at committing suicide. That means that only 1 in about 30 attempts are successful. That would absolutely fucking suck for me... Like the worst kind of failure in life. Again to the psych ward, etc.
Then, things changed. I found a breathing practice that is the mother fucking bomb for clearing my racing mind. Things changed. After 10 psych meds, I found one that worked for me. I found a doctor I could honestly talk with (after making sure that they wouldn't immediately send me to a psych ward). Then I found a trauma release process. Freaking money showed up. Not enough for the IRS thing but a small freaking miracle. Things happened that I thought could not possibly happen.
The breathing techniques have changed my life. My mind slowed down. Things changed.
If anyone wants to chat or learn the breathing techniques I learned, I am happy to chat. I'm not here much anymore but you can PM me. If I don't respond, I'm @rob3108 on Telegram.
PS: I love the SaSu because it's freedom of speech and was on SaSu at least 5-10 times per day.I am super grateful for the people I've chatted with here. Sasu was my only safe space to discuss what was really going through my head. I am not anti suicide. Each person has to make their own call.
The universe doesn't give a dog a tail to heavy to manage.
