Venting I am stuck.

[sillycatforever]

I dont know what to do anymore. I have set my death date and everything but i wish i could do it NOW but i want to do it on that date even more. everyday is a endless loop and im tired.

 

[MrDarkness]

Why do you choose to continue? You clearly have something keeping you alive, not encouraging thing btw

 

[sillycatforever]

Why do you choose to continue? You clearly have something keeping you alive, not encouraging thing btw

My cat mostly. I would feel awful if i left him here alone. I do have plans of giving him away but I just can't right now hes my only hope right now

 

[HighFlight]

I totally get the "endless loop". Try focusing on the cat for now and take one day at a time. Time is the one thing you cannot stop and death is inevitable.

 

[day]

I have picked a date and it's pretty comforting knowing it's not far away however it does feel time has slowed down since then.

Having the date set has also made me just want to do it more, kinda feels like I'm embracing CTB at this point. I'm trying therapy to see if it'll help but I have my doubts. Suppose it could be worth a shot.

Hope you find peace along your journey OP.

 

[Rack.-]

I dont know what to do anymore. I have set my death date and everything but i wish i could do it NOW but i want to do it on that date even more. everyday is a endless loop and im tired.

I'm sorry... You must be going through a lot... Sending you lots of love and hugs wherever you are

My cat mostly. I would feel awful if i left him here alone. I do have plans of giving him away but I just can't right now hes my only hope right now

I bet he's beautiful <3
Take care

 

[FuneralCry]

I do understand feeling so tired of being trapped here. But anyway I wish you the best.