hamvil
Wizard
- Aug 29, 2022
- 652
I am so scared. I am so scared that I will never be able to kill myself and that I will live the rest of my life like I am now. I am scared that I will wake with suicidal ideas all day and that I will go to bed feeling trapped in my mind. I am scared that I will have to wait for nature to take its course.
I am 43, unless an accident happens or I get sick I could probably live another 40 years... 40 years. I am unable to look after myself and I am already making one poor choice after the other every day. My wife has not idea of this but at some point I will make some really big mistake and I may endup hurting other people.
Is there anybody else that also has the same feeling? That is scared that this hell will be with us for decades?
I am 43, unless an accident happens or I get sick I could probably live another 40 years... 40 years. I am unable to look after myself and I am already making one poor choice after the other every day. My wife has not idea of this but at some point I will make some really big mistake and I may endup hurting other people.
Is there anybody else that also has the same feeling? That is scared that this hell will be with us for decades?