bunny_brownie9

bunny_brownie9

so terribly lost
Jan 1, 2024
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I had a hypomanic episode, was 'fine' for a bit and now I feel so severely depressed that I can barely get out of bed, eat, sleep, leave the house. All I think about is gambling or death.

I recently saw a psychiatrist who asked if I'm just saying I feel bad to get more meds, and if I was going to kill myself I would've done it already. no hope.

I have SN here and I'm thinking Saturday in a hotel may be the night. I just feel guilt because of my cat. I hate this pointless existence.
 
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KillingPain267

KillingPain267

Enlightened
Apr 15, 2024
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What a dumb psychiatrist
 
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swankysoup

swankysoup

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Feb 12, 2024
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I recently saw a psychiatrist who asked if I'm just saying I feel bad to get more meds, and if I was going to kill myself I would've done it already. no hope.
What a great person they must be
 
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NearlyIrrelevantCake

NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
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What a shitty shrink, I'm sorry they treated you like that.
 
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mattoman

mattoman

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Nov 26, 2024
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I find it hilarious that psychiatrists who have gone to school for their whole life are still so incapable of understanding human emotions. Yes they know how to diagnose, but that's all they do.

Anyways; I can really relate to your post, all I really think about is gambling and death too, work kind of distracts me from those ideas since I need to socialize with people, which I like.

Is there a chance for you to go to another psychiatrist?
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I also hate suffering in this existence as well. But anyway I wish you the best.
 
bunny_brownie9

bunny_brownie9

so terribly lost
Jan 1, 2024
178
I find it hilarious that psychiatrists who have gone to school for their whole life are still so incapable of understanding human emotions. Yes they know how to diagnose, but that's all they do.

Anyways; I can really relate to your post, all I really think about is gambling and death too, work kind of distracts me from those ideas since I need to socialize with people, which I like.

Is there a chance for you to go to another psychiatrist?
unfortunately not because it's NHS and you see one every 6 months or so. They weren't my normal psychiatrist who is really nice.

There's nothing they can do to help me. I need to die.
 
isolatedl111

isolatedl111

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Nov 25, 2024
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I had a hypomanic episode, was 'fine' for a bit and now I feel so severely depressed that I can barely get out of bed, eat, sleep, leave the house. All I think about is gambling or death.

I recently saw a psychiatrist who asked if I'm just saying I feel bad to get more meds, and if I was going to kill myself I would've done it already. no hope.

I have SN here and I'm thinking Saturday in a hotel may be the night. I just feel guilt because of my cat. I hate this pointless existence.
My life is nothing but suffering. I am so used to it
 

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