• Hey Guest,

    We wanted to share a quick update with the community.

    Our public expense ledger is now live, allowing anyone to see how donations are used to support the ongoing operation of the site.

    👉 View the ledger here

    Over the past year, increased regulatory pressure in multiple regions like UK OFCOM and Australia's eSafety has led to higher operational costs, including infrastructure, security, and the need to work with more specialized service providers to keep the site online and stable.

    If you value the community and would like to help support its continued operation, donations are greatly appreciated. If you wish to donate via Bank Transfer or other options, please open a ticket.

    Donate via cryptocurrency:

    Bitcoin (BTC):
    Ethereum (ETH):
    Monero (XMR):
bunny_brownie9

bunny_brownie9

so terribly lost
Jan 1, 2024
206
I had a hypomanic episode, was 'fine' for a bit and now I feel so severely depressed that I can barely get out of bed, eat, sleep, leave the house. All I think about is gambling or death.

I recently saw a psychiatrist who asked if I'm just saying I feel bad to get more meds, and if I was going to kill myself I would've done it already. no hope.

I have SN here and I'm thinking Saturday in a hotel may be the night. I just feel guilt because of my cat. I hate this pointless existence.
 
  • Hugs
  • Aww..
  • Love
Reactions: Unknown21, CallmeWill4719, avalokitesvara and 4 others
KillingPain267

KillingPain267

Visionary
Apr 15, 2024
2,086
What a dumb psychiatrist
 
  • Like
  • Love
Reactions: Hollowman, CallmeWill4719 and bunny_brownie9
swankysoup

swankysoup

Experienced
Feb 12, 2024
214
I recently saw a psychiatrist who asked if I'm just saying I feel bad to get more meds, and if I was going to kill myself I would've done it already. no hope.
What a great person they must be
 
  • Like
  • Love
Reactions: CallmeWill4719 and bunny_brownie9
NearlyIrrelevantCake

NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
2,516
What a shitty shrink, I'm sorry they treated you like that.
 
  • Like
Reactions: Hollowman and bunny_brownie9
mattoman

mattoman

Member
Nov 26, 2024
96
I find it hilarious that psychiatrists who have gone to school for their whole life are still so incapable of understanding human emotions. Yes they know how to diagnose, but that's all they do.

Anyways; I can really relate to your post, all I really think about is gambling and death too, work kind of distracts me from those ideas since I need to socialize with people, which I like.

Is there a chance for you to go to another psychiatrist?
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,081
I also hate suffering in this existence as well. But anyway I wish you the best.
 
bunny_brownie9

bunny_brownie9

so terribly lost
Jan 1, 2024
206
I find it hilarious that psychiatrists who have gone to school for their whole life are still so incapable of understanding human emotions. Yes they know how to diagnose, but that's all they do.

Anyways; I can really relate to your post, all I really think about is gambling and death too, work kind of distracts me from those ideas since I need to socialize with people, which I like.

Is there a chance for you to go to another psychiatrist?
unfortunately not because it's NHS and you see one every 6 months or so. They weren't my normal psychiatrist who is really nice.

There's nothing they can do to help me. I need to die.
 
passedawayinapril

passedawayinapril

Burial
Nov 25, 2024
271
I had a hypomanic episode, was 'fine' for a bit and now I feel so severely depressed that I can barely get out of bed, eat, sleep, leave the house. All I think about is gambling or death.

I recently saw a psychiatrist who asked if I'm just saying I feel bad to get more meds, and if I was going to kill myself I would've done it already. no hope.

I have SN here and I'm thinking Saturday in a hotel may be the night. I just feel guilt because of my cat. I hate this pointless existence.
My life is nothing but suffering. I am so used to it
 

Similar threads

woofwag
Replies
8
Views
481
Suicide Discussion
PanaxMan
P
mold
Replies
3
Views
285
Suicide Discussion
Aflame5926
Aflame5926
apassingmoment
Replies
0
Views
217
Suicide Discussion
apassingmoment
apassingmoment
thedreamertype_
Replies
7
Views
425
Suicide Discussion
BradGuy123
B