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wasteandvoid

wasteandvoid

ill never be what you wanted im your lucifer
Jun 20, 2023
122
The more i wake up to it the more disgusting it is
 
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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
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Me too, for many years. Hopefully you'll find your way out.
 
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wasteandvoid

wasteandvoid

ill never be what you wanted im your lucifer
Jun 20, 2023
122
Me too, for many years. Hopefully you'll find your way out.
i kind of have but its complicated, i hope you can find peace also
 
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Jello Biafra

Arcanist
Sep 9, 2024
476
The more i wake up to it the more disgusting it is
I feel more like a ghost.

Like life is going on around me but I'm just not part of it.

People laughing, playing, falling in love, even just enjoying TV shows.

I just feel like I'm in the background, unable to enjoy any of it. Like a ghost.
 
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wasteandvoid

ill never be what you wanted im your lucifer
Jun 20, 2023
122
I feel more like a ghost.

Like life is going on around me but I'm just not part of it.

People laughing, playing, falling in love, even just enjoying TV shows.

I just feel like I'm in the background, unable to enjoy any of it. Like a ghost.
are you dissociated?
 
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Jello Biafra

Arcanist
Sep 9, 2024
476
are you dissociated?
Clinically, no.

After losing my wife I just feel like life is going on around me and I can't feel any joy or motivation in participating alongside them.
 
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wasteandvoid

ill never be what you wanted im your lucifer
Jun 20, 2023
122
Clinically, no.

After losing my wife I just feel like life is going on around me and I can't feel any joy or motivation in participating alongside them.
im really sorry
 
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