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infinite14
Schizophrenic and desperate to end this pain
- Mar 19, 2024
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Hello everyone, I have been in an insufferable amount of pain and mental anguish for the past 3 years due to my mental illness and other factors. I have been hospitalized countless times and each time my condition worsened and I felt more trapped. I am hopeless now.
I am a long time lurker on this site for over a year and a half now, although I believe my account is only maybe 5 months old (I don't know how to check) and yes this is my first post sadly (I haven't had the mental power to post until now because of how desperate I am to end this pain).
I am desperate for a way out of this pain and fear of being hospitalized again.
If any kind soul can reach out to me with a source for SN or butanediol (US) I would be eternally grateful, I am begging.
I apologize in advance if this sort of post is not allowed, I am genuinely not sure.
I am a long time lurker on this site for over a year and a half now, although I believe my account is only maybe 5 months old (I don't know how to check) and yes this is my first post sadly (I haven't had the mental power to post until now because of how desperate I am to end this pain).
I am desperate for a way out of this pain and fear of being hospitalized again.
If any kind soul can reach out to me with a source for SN or butanediol (US) I would be eternally grateful, I am begging.
I apologize in advance if this sort of post is not allowed, I am genuinely not sure.
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