I don't want to diminish your feelings as I can see you're hurting a lot and this clearly impacts your life deeply. I don't know your circumstances and your experience of life must have formed these strong beliefs you have, which is sad and worrying.
I will say, however, from my own perspective that it is quite shocking to read what you said about women being less than men, inferior in a lot of ways. That thought alone sounds like internalised misogyny. Women can do anything they put their mind to, people can do anything they put their mind to in general. Of course, each person's upbringing, culture and health will impact on that but, generally speaking, there's nothing stopping either a man or a woman from achieving their goals in western society.
Several of the people I admire are women with a lot of success in their life and they're not celebrities or strangers, but people from my own family or relatives of past friends, colleagues, etc. I'm myself a woman, my family was very poor and it was due to my mother's relentless work that we got into a better state of living. My mother was the driving force of everything good that we got in our life. If it would have been for my father, we would still have a very hard life because he never had the courage to try harder, to think outside the box, to work harder.
Gender means very little, it's the kind of person you are and your beliefs that will dictate what you can accomplish. Of course there are situations where it may be harder for one gender to thrive, due to sexism and being in a male dominated field for example, but that's a hurdle on the way that one can surpass. I've dealt with my fair share of sexism due to being a woman in a male dominated field, it was hard but I moved forward, achieved quite a lot of success in my career.
I'm really sorry you have these beliefs and this almost hatred for the female gender, it must be really hard to deal with and I wonder what happened for you to develop these thoughts and limiting beliefs. It's really serious... For me, being a woman is so nice. I'm not the most feminine person by far but I like being what I am. I find it really heart breaking to see how upset you feel by being a woman. I don't know you but I'm sure you're a wonderful person with a lot of capabilities. Like I said, I wonder what happened, how you developed these ideas?
I hope my post doesn't come across as dismissive as I really empathise with your suffering and truly think it is serious, just wanted to give my perspective, shining some light I guess. So sorry that this is such a painful thing for you, I'd be open to chatting with you if you feel like it could be useful for you?