Venting I am fucked and really need to go...

[marypary1234]

Hello everyone,

I just need to vent. I am sorry to do it and I know that lots of people have it worse than me.

I have struggled with depression and anxiety for so long. I have fucked up all my relations (family, friends, job). I feel so fucking alone and I just want to leave. Even if i could fix the broken relations, it would not change things for me. The only people i can be honest with is people i have met here.

The pain i have inside me is getting worse everyday. I wish I was religious or something, so I could pray for a miracle to happen (that I fall asleep and never wake up). I never asked to be born.

I hope i die soon before I mess up my life even more (if possible)..

Dont really know why i am posting this now. Maybe just need to feel some comfort or something..

 

[ShatteredSerenity]

I resonate with this. Everything about my life is so broken that it's impossible for me to ever recover. The pain is unbearable, and it's only getting worse. I can't keep going on like this much longer. I've given up on life and can't wait for death, the sooner it comes the better.

 

[turnaround]

I feel this. Everyday it just gets worse. The pain. I keep repeating myself. My mind, my soul, my spirit, they are already dead. I wish my body would follow suit and die. I will be gone soon as I have no choice.

 

[LukaParrot]

You didnt mention if you're taking antidepressants and or calming drugs.

They sometimes help... a lot. May not be easy to find what works for you but you should try at least. If it's not working with a doctor, find another, that's my experience.

When anxiety hits hard at my door, calming drugs are a relief, i'm not using black market, what i use are prescribed drugs. Your mind needs a break, as you said, that you need to vent, talk helps.

Hope for better days for you my friend.

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds like you've suffered a lot, I also just wish to be free from all the suffering, I really understand just wishing to be gone. But anyway I wish you the best.