Discussion I almost CTB 2 weeks ago but I got talked out of it

[guineapiglover8503]

So like 2 weeks ago, I was in a hotel that was like 20 stories and I kept staring out the window and all of the sudden had this giant urge to go up to a higher floor and jump. I really can't describe how large the urge was. The thing is, I don't want this method. I want SN bc I want my body to be at least okay-ish for if people want to see me. I decided fuck it and called the trans lifeline since I am trans and all. In short, we talked for like just shy of 40 minutes until I calmed down and I went on with my day.

This is the second time I almost did smth like this and the other time I was just too lazy to do it. I think about this moment 2 weeks ago a lot from a lot of different angles and it doesn't really leave my head. The woman who was on the line was very nice and I loved talking to her. She reminded me a lot of a friend of mine. I haven't had good experiences with 988 so I thought this would be a cool thing to try and it was fun to talk to another trans person

 

[littleraccoon3]

The emotions you're experiencing must be incredibly intense and overwhelming, so it's really important that you've shared them. Understanding your feelings in the moment and opening up to others takes courage, and what you've done is truly valuable. The connection you made with the person on the phone is also meaningful; having someone who understands you and helps you calm down can be incredibly reassuring. Sometimes, we don't even know what we need to feel better, but knowing that there's someone there with you in those moments really makes a difference. It's important to remember to be kind to yourself and accept support, because we know that things can change in an instant. Finding what makes you feel good and discovering what works best for you is key.

 

[guineapiglover8503]

The emotions you're experiencing must be incredibly intense and overwhelming, so it's really important that you've shared them. Understanding your feelings in the moment and opening up to others takes courage, and what you've done is truly valuable. The connection you made with the person on the phone is also meaningful; having someone who understands you and helps you calm down can be incredibly reassuring. Sometimes, we don't even know what we need to feel better, but knowing that there's someone there with you in those moments really makes a difference. It's important to remember to be kind to yourself and accept support, because we know that things can change in an instant. Finding what makes you feel good and discovering what works best for you is key.

One of my favorite comments on this site, thank you <3

 

[littleraccoon3]

One of my favorite comments on this site, thank you <3

you welcome babyIt doesn't mean you're alone. Even though I may not know or see you, the taste of our tears is the same. The only reason it's harder for people like us to seek help is because we don't have many places to go. That's why I would love for you to join a community. Unfortunately, living in the cursed Middle East, I can't even find a community here. :(

And finally, be kind to yourself. It's easy to criticize yourself when dealing with such challenging emotions, but approaching yourself with love is incredibly valuable in the healing process. Gradually, you'll see these feelings begin to ease over time.