How?

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I really don't understand how some users like Vizzy (1872 messages in just over 6 weeks) can have so much activity in such a short time (forum and irl), because i can barely make a minimally decent post.

I can barely get things done during a day because i feel extremely exhausted, have a thick mental fog and constantly fighting against anxiety. There are even days where i just lie in bed and rot because everything feels so hard and heavy.

It's been over 8 months since i joined here and i was barely able to get SN recently.

This only makes me feel more useless and miserable.

Im beyond fucked up.

Everything feels so exhausting.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

It's been over 8 months since i joined here and i was barely able to get SN recently.

I have my method, and was going to get some SN as a backup plan, but I've never been able to do that, so you're way ahead of me on that one. I keep missing the opportunities when they are around until there are no more. Story of my life, really.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand that it really can be so dreadful feeling trapped here, existing really can be so tiring and torturous, I find it so horrible how it's not more straightforward to permanently escape from all the suffering that existing brings.