how to stop compulsively checking sn shipping status?

[eggsausagerice]

i should be doing better things with my time, but since i cut off most of my friends and don't have much to do at home besides play games and watch shows because i'm unemployed, i've been fixated on when my sn will arrive in the mail. it makes me feel kind of ashamed of myself, because i know i should be doing something i enjoy if i try to encourage other people to stop fixating on things they're worried about. it's just always in the back of my mind no matter what i do. i don't really feel like leaving my house or doing much of anything, because i feel really anxious most of the time. i feel guilty that i want to kill myself and i feel guilty that i'm not dead either. it's been weighing on me a lot these past few days even though i know that it'll probably turn out fine if i live in the us. i just know that i won't have an excuse to tell the police if they come to my house. cutting off my irl friends has just made my anxiety worse because i feel like there's no way i can relax if i just spend most of my day ruminating. i know that i don't really want to go back to my friends if i'm going to attempt, because i don't want to be around them if i'm actively planning my suicide. it feels like a lot at once, even though it really isn't. my life is just really empty right now. i feel like i don't have anything i really enjoy, even though i still like things. i'm just constantly worrying that i'm a burden even if i'm not in anyone's lives anymore.

 

[Pluto]

 

[metfan647]

You could spend your time learning about interesting things like punctuation. Only joking (but not joking). On a serious note, I could suggest a million and one things to keep you occupied but as someone with a proclivity to being on the neurotic side, I too will be be very anxious when it gets closer to delivery.

 

[eggsausagerice]

 

[vascomorrow]

You could spend your time learning about interesting things like punctuation. Only joking (but not joking). On a serious note, I could suggest a million and one things to keep you occupied but as someone with a proclivity to being on the neurotic side, I too will be be very anxious when it gets closer to delivery.

Hes talking about ctb and you're worried about his grammar.. wow

 

[Warum]

You could spend your time learning about interesting things like punctuation. Only joking (but not joking). On a serious note, I could suggest a million and one things to keep you occupied but as someone with a proclivity to being on the neurotic side, I too will be be very anxious when it gets closer to delivery.

oh please shut the fuck up

 

[Scorpio moon gal]

Hes talking about ctb and you're worried about his grammar.. wow

Hes talking about ctb and you're worried about his grammar.. wow

I wonder

 

[metfan647]

Hes talking about ctb and you're worried about his grammar.. wow

It's just a bit of levity.

 

[eggsausagerice]

You could spend your time learning about interesting things like punctuation.

not helpful brother.

 

[metfan647]

not helpful brother.

Apologies.

 

[eggsausagerice]

i feel like i don't have anything i really enjoy, even though i still like things. i'm just constantly worrying that i'm a burden even if i'm not in anyone's lives anymore.

i went outside to sit on a lawn chair and i've been feeling the sun on my face and the breeze. i'm still just watching youtube videos on my phone but i feel better than how i felt in my room. i still need to go back inside because the sun is in my eyes though.

 

[jengablocks]

mine never escaped customs processing but i was the same way . it was just hard to focus on anything else, especially when there really is nothing else.. like all the things there are to possibly think about just lead back to why im doing this in the first place.

i know u mentioned not wanting to leave the house , but that's where my mind goes. physically changing spaces to someplace different can help with escaping rumination sometimes even if no other circumstances change , atleast for me.

 

[violetforever]

You could spend your time learning about interesting things like punctuation. Only joking (but not joking).

that was irrelevant i see a lot of people on here who dont have english as a first language and nobody tells them to go learn proper english bc its insensitive.

 

[thelostautistic]

It is really hard. I was doing the exact same thing when mine was on the way. This may sound really random but I found doing puzzles really kept my mind occupied whilst waiting. It killed so many hours

 

[eggsausagerice]

I found doing puzzles really kept my mind occupied whilst waiting.

what kind of puzzles did you like doing? i used to like chess but my ego got in the way bc i was so bad in my chess club lol. i do like that i get caught up in things more when they're more difficult, but i also get sad if they're too difficult for me to know how to do.

 

[thelostautistic]

what kind of puzzles did you like doing? i used to like chess but my ego got in the way bc i was so bad in my chess club lol. i do like that i get caught up in things more when they're more difficult, but i also get sad if they're too difficult for me to know how to do.

I was doing a lot of big jigsaw puzzles. I also like sudokus as well. That might be a good way to kill time if you like those

 

[eggsausagerice]

update: still checking sn status, but i'm less anxious as i was before. it's still in customs. started playing pokemon white out of boredom. i hope the status updates soon.

 

[eggsausagerice]

started playing pokemon white out of boredom

pokemon gameplay loop still sucks. i'm very resistant to enjoying pokemon games

 

[walliwalli]

i get it. i don't have anything useful to say but i'm in the same boat, my SN is on the way too. my days are pretty occupied by irl responsibilities so i don't have much free time to think about it but when i do it's Weird.

i am also in the US—i think it will turn out surprisingly easy! but we'll see i guess.

i know it's tough but it's temporary, once it arrives your anxiety will be alleviated. in the meantime do what you need to do to pass the time. whenever i have lots of time to kill, i always rely on movies and shows. i even go to physical movie theaters and i find them to be very useful because each movie reliably takes like three hours out of my day.

 

[Macedonian1987]

It's best to try not to think about it as much as possible, though that's easier said than done. In my case, since I bought it from a local store, I had to wait a month for it to be synthesized; producing small amounts for a single individual simply isn't economically viable. I bought only 100g of SN and I patiently waited for a whole month. I called them in a month and asked why there was delay. In the end I got it, but with almost 1 week delay. They were even nice to delivered it near my home address.

 

[EmptyBottle]

what kind of puzzles did you like doing? i used to like chess but my ego got in the way bc i was so bad in my chess club lol. i do like that i get caught up in things more when they're more difficult, but i also get sad if they're too difficult for me to know how to do.

Try lichess.org's puzzles, they are nice

 

[eggsausagerice]

Try lichess.org's puzzles

i'm too brainrotted to do lichess puzzles/log back on anymore, even though it would kill time. i'm just super bad at calculating my moves since i stopped analyzing things. i would suck to relearn everything from the ground up.

 

[addictedfukup]

do you want to do anything? no judgement but you sound alot like me when im depressed and just dont want to do anything

 

[aufrechtm7]

i'm too brainrotted to do lichess puzzles/log back on anymore, even though it would kill time. i'm just super bad at calculating my moves since i stopped analyzing things. i would suck to relearn everything from the ground up.

iwantcheckmate is a really fun chess youtuber I've been addicted to who does a lot of content on different variants if you still love chess enough to see others play it well

 

[EmptyBottle]

i'm too brainrotted to do lichess puzzles/log back on anymore, even though it would kill time. i'm just super bad at calculating my moves since i stopped analyzing things. i would suck to relearn everything from the ground up.

that's ok (geometry dash, run 3 from coolmath games, etc are all available, even YT and the forum game section)

There's also 365chess.com, where one can make a free account and look at the chess openings, without having to feel like one is making mistakes.

 

[dragon.//]

Did you receive it?

 

[eggsausagerice]

Did you receive it?

no bruh. i would've talked about it if i did

 

[dragon.//]

no bruh

Ive seen your posts you said its been in customs for 2 weeks? Any idea as to why?

 

[eggsausagerice]

Ive seen your posts you said its been in customs for 2 weeks? Any idea as to why?

no. can you not bother me