how to start my note

[everlastinghistory]

I've decided to kill myself a lot sooner than I originally planned. I previously wanted to be dead within the next 3 years. Now it's looking more like the next 3 weeks. Which means I need to figure everything out as quickly and accurately as I can. I always pushed things off before, figuring I had enough time. I don't have that time now. I want this done. I want to die sooner.

I've been trying to write my final note since last night and all I can think is "I love you" because I'm writing to a girl I am desperately in love with who doesn't want to talk to me anymore.

I'm not exactly sure where to start with this.

I know notes are a personal thing. Very personal, at that.

But does anyone have any recommendations of how exactly I should write this? I don't even know where to start. I haven't been thinking clearly since she told me she didn't want to talk anymore.

I just need a first sentence. Anything. I need somewhere to begin.

 

[counting-out-time]

hi there

Personally I wouldn't make a note to I'm assuming an ex you had been with before as it may make her feel guilty and could like she was the reason that you wanted to ctb.

I'm planning on catching the bus tonight and all I've left is a scribble on the bedroom wall stating if all goes to plan - I am now at peace and thanks to everyone who has given me help and support when I needed it.

as for a note then I'd start by mentioning why you have decided to go this way and maybe just put a few lines in about how you was feeling and that it was no body else's fault. frankly that's what. would write but I find leaving notes quite hard to compose.

 

[blue_muse]

You could start by saying that, although you understand things are different, why you're writing her a note.