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bunny_brownie9

bunny_brownie9

so terribly lost
Jan 1, 2024
206
The guilt I feel is overwhelming.

I know I have a few people who care and it will hurt them deeply, and the thought of that going round and round in my brain. For all the broken promises… everything I've put them through…

I don't know what to do or how to stop tormenting myself about it.
 
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sugarb

sugarb

thief of silent dreams
Jun 14, 2024
794
The guilt I feel is overwhelming.

I know I have a few people who care and it will hurt them deeply, and the thought of that going round and round in my brain. For all the broken promises… everything I've put them through…

I don't know what to do or how to stop tormenting myself about it.
Personally, I just put it out of mind as best I can. It hurts and accomplishes nothing
 
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sos

sos

Specialist
Jul 22, 2024
314
kind of need that realization that you're making this decision to set yourself free and not to hurt them

you're not doing it on purpose, you're simply suffering

they won't understand bc they'll always be willing to help you get out of this even tho a decision might've already been made
 
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EternalSummer

EternalSummer

Experienced
Nov 13, 2020
275
I've been recording some positive conversation for my mom and dad, it's gonna get to an hour by now rs. But thanking them, reminding them that what they did for me is deeply appreciated and it wasnt for nothing, that everybidy gonna die someday, but I decided that there's nothing else left for me in the future, and i dont have the energy or psychology to continue.

The rest is only remembering the good things, the good emotions, the love, ans that i was able to experience many great things in my life. That im very greatful and very sorry I couldnt give back a tiny fraction of what they gave me.
 
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